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I realized that every boyfriend I ever have, our relationship ends in a month or so. My currect boyfriend is showing the signs of ignoring me and acting like "Wtf why are you saying you love me". Honestly, I can feel the tension and I know he's going to break up with me. Am I a bad girlfriend? I have always loved my boyfriends but each one I have had (dated 4) but they all get bored of me and cheat on me and treat me lik shit. I have a feeling my current boyfriend is going to leave me. I feel so pathetic and sad. I'm not even in the country and I can't talk to him whenever. What do I do. I just want one relationship to last. Or is this going to end bad. Also, ever since he met up with some chick, he never talks to me. He's always trying to get me jealous by telling me about some girl trying to makeout with him. I don't know. Ugh frick.

My boyfriend and I have been dating for 10 months. Before then, I went through a really bad break up with my ex. I tried to be friends with him or at least be on good terms before my boyfriend and I started. When David (boyfriend) and I started dating, I was still talking to my ex, not romantically but as friends. I admit I did have some feelings but I did not want to date him, those feelings weren't romantic. I admitted to those feelings to David and he left me. While we were on break, he tried to make me jealous by hanging around this new girl at our school who happened to be friends with all of his friends. We get back together, soon after I get news that I'm moving 7 hours away, we stay together. I get insecure about him sitting with his friends because of that girl. Soon, my doctor finds a large tumor, it might be cancer. I have surgery. Fast forward to April, I give my FB password to him, he accuses me of cheating. I don't cheat. He says that using emoticons is cheating, I only use emoticons when the conversation is meaningless and I'm not sure what to say. He says I'm lying. A guy says he misses talking to me and being nice, I say that I miss talking to him too, I don't mean it but I know he won't bother me again. Everyone else, were guys I was friends with years before David and I started. Week later, I drive 7 hours to go to his prom. Everything is great after prom. Weeks later he says he showed my messages to girls at his school and they all "confirm" that I was flirting, he says he can't get over that and that I didn't love hit, and he asks for a break. During break, we still talk and call each other. I showered him with love and affection. The other day he said he can't do this, that he can't trust me, and I get hysterical. After hours of us crying and me asking why, he takes back what he said and we're together again. Next day, he says this was a mistake, repeat of the night before. We're together again. He says he's scared about us not working out.

So, this is the story:
Me and this guy dated for maybe a year, but we were friends before.
It was a difficult relationship since the begining, with ups and downs, but we really wanted it to work. It started to get worst and worst until I couldn't handle it any longer and broke up with him. There was no cheating or beating or anything like that from any of the parts.
But It was a really hard break up for both.
We tried to be friends again, but it never worked well because he wanted me to be his gf again..
Eventually I fell in love and got another boyfriend, and when I told him he got really bad and we don't talk since then. We send happy birthday and Christmas cards to each other, but nothing else..
I don't know if he is hurt still or if he has moved on and wants me out of his life.
Or if he hates me for having moved on
Or for not having tried harder to save our relationship..
We might have been a shitty couple but he is or was one of the best friends I ever had. I really miss that and I think it's a pity to lose such an amazing friendship because of this.
Please guys and girls give me your opinion about this, thank you