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For the longest time, I've been trying to figure out what I'm doing wrong when it comes to girls. I blamed myself, thinking it's my personality, since I'm a kind person, maybe I'm easy? My kindness is a weakness? Am I a pushover? Maybe it's my physical appearance? I'm 5"5', no girl wants a short guy right? It is my youth? I look 16 when I shave my facial hair. Its has to be my approach. I'm very shy so I'm only open when approached. Do I keep to myself over the fear of rejection? My race? I'd believe it. I wanted to be Asian when I was little. My financal class? I never discuss money over the fear of gold diggers. I started doing research, read books, watched documentaries. I became desperate. Researching other genders, sexualities, headache after headache. I feel straight, I want to be straight but do I deserve to be? People considered I should be bi-curious. Should I start looking at other genders or is my desperation for love, affection and attention made me mentally ill and need professional help?

I never had a girlfriend in my life. Sometimes I was busy in academics , sometimes in multiple hobbies. I have tried sometimes but never had any luck. There’s a story I would like to share , read it if you have time
There was a girl , I met in college. We became friends really soon. She told me she found my qualities and me admirable. After two months of meeting she got involved with guy 1 . And one day told me that guy 1 was not her lover instead he forced her into sex and threatened her. Which was actually true. So I defended her , as being a friend. Somehow she stopped talking with me after. I thought she needed time for healing and it’s ok. Then after one month she contacted me again and told me the actual story. She had a guy 2 from tinder for casual sex. Somehow she got attached and the guy left her and she told those to guy 1 and he took an advantage of her vulnerability. Now she was completely devastated and wanted to commit suicide. I took her to doctor. I always had a gentle heart (my biggest weakness ) . I grew up helping people , doing charitable work. So in that time I cooked for her , helped her in studies and somehow I caught up feelings for her. When I told her about them. She told me guys like me are only valuable when women start to search for husband , my talents don’t matter. She knew I never had a girlfriend before. She though me as a loser and many other hurtful things and left. Well she could have just said no I won’t mind.

Actually being single for this long I have accepted that girls don’t like good guys anymore. Said no to casual flings cause I wanted love. Why I always get bad karma 😔, even though I never hunted anyone.