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I had chased him for two years after our break up but then found someone who cared about me as well. This time period is when my ex and I dated so I knew I was going to struggle a bit but for the most part I just focused on my new relationship and being happy.

Last night I had a dream where my ex changed completely. He went from being cold to being warm and I remember just begging people to let me talk to him. I woke up completely disturbed. All of my old feelings were in that dream.

I haven't told my boyfriend and I dont want to. I love my boyfriend but that dream just fucked with me. My boyfriend told me he would do anything to help me move on and I dont want to change that.

It doesn't mean anything does it? I dont want to go back to him ever.

My friends and I have encountered lots of guys

Guys that break up with you without saying anything
Guys that lead you on and deny it
Guys who cheat
Guys who tell all their friends on the football team what you do together in private
Guys who secretly record sex and show people
Guys who use girls for sex and then dump them
Guys that lie control and manipulate
Etc. If I ever did any of these things I would never have a peace of mind. I would feel guilty and write or tell that person who I hurt I am truly sorry. I know thats one of the main reasons why I feel animosity towardy exs. They never apologized for hurting me so much, they never acknowledged their role in my hurt. Because it took me 6 months to get over my first heartbreak and I felt like it would destroy me. It didn't but why can't guys admit and apologize for their roles in a girl's nightmares, a girl's tears, a girl's shame (of being used or exposed) a girl's change of eating habits because she's so depressed, or the way a girl will probably never love that hard again because of what you've done. Seriously? Guys dont feel guilty AT ALL? I can't imagine that someone could be this cold and without feelings.

I am dating someone and I am.. I act like an emotional rollercoaster I am always worried and afraid, I know he loves me. I still worry though, we have a dom. sub relationship, and I haven't been listening very well. I am worried that my family will see me. I live in a abusive home and am working on leaveing. Some of it is just my fault though, so does anyone have any tips on how not to stress? I have panic attacks and those make him really unhappy because I won't listen, I feel I can't help a lot of what I do during them but afterwards I know I have been unforgivable. we have a contract to be togtheir another four months, and he says he wouldn't leave.. but I worry I am imperfect and insecure. This is my first relationship and it is important to me. I am ashamed of how werid my emotions are. He is imperfect too, I dont think he realizes he doesn't talk enough, he likes humilation and i like it, but I can't take it after being screamed at home.. and i know that isn't his fault im yelled at but.. im getting squished. I want to ask for him to be kind more often. He doesn't always seem to hear me. I dont get responses back... anyways thank you for any help if youve ever been an emotional rollercoaster.