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Even though I do really good at them, for example, at family parties, meetings, gatherings, presentations, etc. I do well on them and people say I'm an outgoing social guy, but I realized that I'm very pressured in those situations, I gotta keep thinking about what I'm gonna do or say next, gotta give a lot of attention to everyone because otherwise I'd seem rude, gotta be on the lookout for everyone's behaviour and reactions and it's just a lot of work for me. I don't hate it or something, I actually somewhat enjoy it even thought it's so much, but I'm just making sure.

Is this normal? Do social and outgoing people feel the same way?

I've known this girl for 2 years since starting university, a simple description would be a gleeful -- odd but outgoing -- focused person aspiring to go to medical school. Me on the other hand, A former anxiety-ridden guy who likes molecular genetics, top of the class but my social life does not exist (2 hour cummute to uni everday).

I saw just another uni friend, yet, I think through her being occasionally with my vicinity (e. g. at meeting events or elsewhere) we both got to know each other on a casual friends level. I knew she was getting comfortable around me; conversations ranged from random mundane stuff to deeper family issues on both sides. I began thinking "maybe, just maybe this person is a tad bit interested in me".

She had invited me to a Korean restaurant with 2 other uni friends we both knew (a homosexual and a guy already with a girlfriend, both similar age). Due to uni work, she cancelled -- which was understandable.

She calls out of the blue and we have plans to go to so the movie "Glass". in short, we were going alone together but I stupidly invite another friend who's 30 and the day involved me not really engaging much (it sucked). We both could tell she was uncomfortable and her excuse to not see the movie after we ate were because she could tell that I was tired and pretty much not enjoying this (which was true). life goes on.

She agrees to go to another restaurant with me (I initiated) and because I have slowly lost interest I cancel this a day before with the excuse -- I have a meeting (that I had no intentions of going to).

The next day I sit next to her in a lounge and things are normal, she had new earrings and dress and the conversation is fine albeit she seems to always try and get me talking despite me not initiating at all.

The signs?
Responds quickly whenever I text
gives me the same nicknames she calls her girlfriends
very touchy during conversations
Leaning in when we talk?
asks me what I think of the things she wears.