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I have already met my soulmate who i can never be together with and we aren't in contact anymore. He helped me and i helped him and our roles in each other's lives are over. So i don't have to worry about "the one"
The biggest deal breaker in a relationship for me is cheating and i have always advised a break up if your SO cheats. Cheating is the same reason why i am scared to be in a relationship too. It seems that many people here and irl supports cheating too. I had a guy tell me he will pour sulphuric acid on to my face because i asked a girl to break up with her cheating boyfriend. I know a female user here who everyone compliments on how she's such a submissive good girlfriend while she's flirting and sexting her guy friend. Even some of my friends in committed relations talk about new crushes and flirting with hot losers.(They say it's for fun)
Whenever i express my hatred towards cheating, people ask "Did you get cheated on or something?". Obviously i did not. But i feel like what they're saying is i don't have the right to be upset about cheating.
Anyway i got a player guy who have always wanted to "date" me since i am not easy and i am 99.9% sure he will cheat. So if i date him and when he cheats, i may finally be able to get rid of my fear. Once i become immune, i believe that i won't be always thinking if my future SO (someone i love) is cheating and even if he is, I would be used to it.
You would feel like i am being a hypocrite rn so i will stop expressing my anger towards cheating and such questions from this moment onwards. And yes i am alright being a miserable girl who would probably be pitied on (Ik i need help🤷‍♀️).

This guy I had had a crush on since middle school finally asked me out freshman year of high school. We flirted all the time but it took him so long because he was in a relationship until 8th grade but he still flirted and wanted to be around me all the time. When we finally got together I would feel butterflies all the time. He would call me all the time but I never answered because I was too nervous but in person I could talk forever. Unfortunately I found out that he was taking to other girls so I broke it off but he still tried to call and get me to talk to him but I ignored because I was sad. But that was freshman year, I am recently graduated and over the years he always stared at me from across rooms and I felt he loved me too but he eventually he got back with the girl he was with in middle school. And I was hurt until he came into my job that his friend worked with me. And he was visiting his friend when the friend came back he asked me if u still liked the boy at the time his girlfriend worked with me so I said no in fear of being set up. But he kept asking and he said I can tell you something good he f I said yes but I was scared. Now I have a new job that I work with him and he is always staring at me and trying to start a conversation with me. I do want him but at the same time I’m tired of wanting the same old thing. I want to try something new but it just feels like I’m destined to be with him. But I don’t want to be that other woman I want to be the only one. We have graduated and now our schools are right across the street from each other. However I am still wanting to see more people before I settle I don’t know why or if I should let go help!!