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We on Twitter 2 years ago and a few months later we started to flirt until we met for the first time last year. He lived in north of France while I was in south, so he decided to move to be with me. He came and it was wonderful... until he got sick because he was a smoker, but we moved on with it and we started uni.
One month later he got sick again and it really affected him; 2 weeks later it happened again. Since then he started to talk to me less (we used to text all day long). I couldn't be here that much for him because of med school and it made me sad to leave him alone while he was far away his friends and his family. I felt like that it was because of me.
He was operated but when I visited he talked to me like I was annoying him. After this we talked from time to time, and even if I had a lot of work to do, I was preoccupied of his behavior toward me and his health. I didn't want to annoy him because I knew that he was playing all day (he didn't go to uni for weeks) and when I asked him if he wanted to see me he simply told me "if you want but I wanna play LoL too!" I didn't say a thing because of his sickness.
he asked me to come at his place and we had fun, and he told me that he was spending his life on his computer because he didn't feel well and that's why he didn't text me lately.
A week later he got sick again and a few days later he went to his family for Christmas and came back last week but didn't tell me: a friend did. Since dec I haven't seen him again. He texts me less and less and all I know is that he spend his entire life playing LoL, and I know it bc of his few tweets. He told his friends he was back, but not me; he only told me 2 days ago bc I texted him to know how he was doing so he told me "I was wondering why you dont answer but I forgot to tell you Im back! talk to you tomorrow" He didn't talk to me since. I know he still love me and I do too but I don't know what to do.

So first off, I've always had a pudge on my belly -and those love handles everyone tries to get rid of- since going on birth control about four months ago.(I went from 98 lbs to 135lbs, I guess I filled out.)

I am 19 as of December, and I just weighed myself yesterday and I was 132 but with a big ass belly, it looked like I was pregnant!

I just weighed myself today and I'm 135, but I still look like I'm pregnant, my pudge is sticking so far out, its almost rounded? It really worries me, I have a fear of getting pregnant, almost a phobia if you will. It gets bad.

I would compare it to a three or four month time period of pregnancy. More like a three month. Anywhere from month two to three on this chart: link

on that chart, I normally look like month two, but this past week I look like month three and its really scaring me to where I can't sleep at night!

I JUST got off my period this last Sunday, it was normal like always. I have not skipped a period since starting birth control.

I don't think I'm pregnant, because wouldn't I get morning sickness and all the other symptoms of pregnancy, if I was THAT far along (3-4 months)?

my mom says maybe I'm full of shit (jokingly, meaning I need to poop) but my belly wouldn't stick out THAT much, would it?

maybe I have water weight? But still, again, it wouldn't be THAT much water weight, would it? I mean I don't drink water as often as the general norm, but its not like I never drink water.

I can suck in my abs and grab the pudge, move it etc, wouldn't you NOT be able to do that if you had a baby there?

Someone tell me I'm not going crazy, because I REALLY don't want to be a parent right now. That is the LAST thing I want in life, in fact, I'm not even sure I want kids at all in my lifetime. It's just not for me I guess.

any personal experiences, explanations, or facts are welcome, please and thank you!