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Thought I share my experience. I find it very hard to express emotions, mostly because I get to know the world more and more. Nothing is exciting or really "something new" anymore. Best I can do is fake smiling only to make good impressions and that's it. I still DO laugh, when a joke really gets me or something really funny happened.

Deep down I feel dead. Yet I do things I like to do but my face always remains the same: Bored. Like this



When I say I do things I like to do, that involves my hobbies and favourite music and videos. I do experience the joy and fun out of them but emotionally I do not show these.

When most people I see get strongly emotionally expressed like excitement, I remain with the face above because that's nothing really budging for me.

I do not complain about this but I feel like I'm all alone like this. I was wondering if someone else feels like me. Dead inside yet still alive. Like an undead person.

Reasons for these are that I had enough, more than enough (mainly I felt like I spend my life from the inside crying with sorrows for the majority of what is behind me for almost a year now). Simple as that. I'm just moving on and that's it. Trying to make something worth living my life and so far so good.

Basically, I was dating this girl for a year and things were actually going really well. The only problem was that her parents were racist against someone of my ethnicity but we never let that get in the way. In fact it may of even made our relationship stronger. So basically we went to different colleges and she was starting to get depressed that we could never see each other. Meanwhile, there was a boy at her college that I could very easily tell was interested in her. She constantly assured me that she was not interested in him. Fast forwarding through my fall semester she ended up breaking up with me right after Thanksgiving and we didn't talk again until Christmas and she told me that she had sex with that guy and that she regretted it. Even though we broke up I was angry and stopped talking to her again. then like 4 months go by and we start talking again and i find out she had sex with him several more times.. she still claims never to have felt anything for him but she was just emotionally numb and didn't care about anything.. I know thats not an excuse for anyhing but I do seriously love this girl. The fact that she is pregnant is KILLING ME.. Especially since i've hated the dude since day one but I feel even worse without her in my life.. like emotionally dead.. and I didn't take her back but i assured her Id be here for her... and Im just not sure if its right.. I feel like if I truly love her I should be able to move pass this.. I believe she's putting the child up for adoption in order to return to school but.. Should I keep talking to her? or should I teach her a lesson and stop talking to her? I honestly dont know if im capable of just being friends with her either.. Its kina all or nothing in this case.. My honest opinion is that I love her and I want what we had back more than anything..

Hey PPl!!
Well... a few years ago I had a gr8 life... I was fit.. had a good bod (Had a kinda 6 pack ab kinda formation) was into athletics and soccer... was dating this amazing girl and basically everything nice... doing well in school... then suddenly I got injured ( Had a ligament tear) so had 2 quit sports for 2 years... my girl dumped me... grades got affected badly. However 1 positive was I got a job after graduation but it sucked kinda a dead beat 2 me... I became moody, depressed and was angry with self all the time... lost most of friends coz my ex said shit about me... because of this I started smoking both weed and cigarettes ( Mostly cigs) used to drink a lot... however I turned to food coz I found it gr8 to beat my depression... So my friends ( my two buddies who have been a rock for me) asked me this question "Dude, where is the old u? Get him back... this new u is a frekking mopey dick" This question really made me think and remember the kinda I was... so now I'm back to college to pursue my masters... however, I want to ask u all about whether any one of u have had this kinda experience of turning yourself's around... and will u all just help me become the old cheerful, ambitious and happy guy I used to be... please?