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Ight so I’m part of the “boys” to an extent. Yk the one girl the boys always got around whenever they hang out? That’s me. Anytime I party it’s with the homies.
I started catching feelings for this one dude in the squad but when we were both single we were close buddies and he would tell me “BAS” (females ain’t shit) and I’d tell him the same thing back but male version.
Anytime he makes a joke, I’m always the first person he looks to to see if I found the joke funny. Whenever we party at my house we always end up falling asleep side by side (more like my back against his chest), bodies pressed up against each other. He got a girl, moved in with her, been with her for a good 2 years now.
It’s been a minute since I last saw him. I recently just threw a party and invited all the homies (obviously him and his girl included, his girl denied he didn’t) I ended up getting way too shitfaced and falling asleep early. When I went down in the morning I accidentally took this dude’s seat on the sofa so he told me to move to the right so he can sit where I was sitting. These two seats were the only connected seats on all our sitting spaces. There was a good 7 other seats he could've chosen. When he sat next to me we shared covers and he’d have a part of his body leaning on me. Still making eye contact with me first anytime he throws a joke. Always cheesin my way. Anytime I would compliment him he’d stare dead in my eyes and give me the cutest shy smile.
Maybe he’s just friendly like that? He never shot his shot when he was single even tho I would always hint at him to. We were the oh they would be such a cute couple kinda friends but I don’t know if he ever saw me like that. He has a whole girl waiting for him at home. Does this dude feel sumn for me or am I tripping?

I went to school to take my stupid FSA
Then after I took the test I had to wait for my Mom to come and get me
While waiting this group of girls just walked over in front of me and started talking crap and pointing and staring
They were talking crap like I wasn't right behind them
Then they kept doing this high pitched giggle... eghhhh it was so annoying

So I'm a part of a college Christian youth group and I'm worried that one of the guys in that group likes me. At first I just had a hunch because of eye contact and his body language, but I didn't want to be narcissistic, so I just brushed it off and convinced myself I was imagining things or overthinking him just trying to be nice. In the past week, he has made an effort to go out of his way to be nice or chivalrous to me on many occasions. Even to the point of waiting for me to drive off first so that I would lead the way. In our group chat on messenger he reacts to every single one of my messages, even when it's mainly girls just sending hearts. He doesn't do this to anyone else. And he doesn't pay as much attention to anyone else either. For a few reasons, he is not and will never be attractive to me (I don't mean this physically). He is not a person that I could ever see myself with. In our church people don't really date unless they're looking to eventually find the right one to marry and think the person they're about to date might be them. We don't just date for fun or cause it feels nice to have a boyfriend or girlfriend. So it's pretty serious when you have a guy show any interest. I'm totally freaking out because (1) he's 24, I'm 19... it's not creepy, but he's ready for marriage, I'm not. (2) I have about 4 more years of school ahead of me before I want to marry so that means I probably wouldn't be dating anyone for another two years. (3 ) I'm interested in someone else... Who, yes doesn't know or probably like me back, but I would never be able to even consider feelings for someone else while I still like him. (4) one of my close friends likes him, and if she found out she'd be devastated. (5) I don't want this to get dramatic and explode in our group. I don't want people to find out and cause more issues. (6) I don't want to hurt him, just because I don't like him that way, doesn't mean I don't have a soul or that I don't care.