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We went from meeting, to friends, to hooking up pretty fast but slowly slowly we've become more to each other. He told me honestly when I asked him, he was having sex with others before we became exclusive. He was honest: "we're not dating; I can do whatever I want." When I told him it hurt me that he got with someone else he was very apologetic and he told me he wouldn't do it again. Now that he says we're exclusive I'm so paranoid. Even though he's always in contact with me, I worry that he's cheating. I worry constantly. I get jealous, I get mean, I act unstable because I'm afraid he's lying. He's so kind to me when I act like this. He tells me he'd never hurt me. He tells me if he'd known I wanted to be exclusive earlier he would've been exclusive. He says he's sad that I'm sad and that he wishes he could hold me in his arms at that moment. Every time I feel guilty. He's unfollower all the half-naked women he used to have on instagram "from when he was single". He realized I didn't like the constant drinking and has been trying to slow that down. He's trying to quit smoking because I told him he needed to take care of himself. There are no signs that he's cheating. He is so respectful of me and patient with me and appreciative of me and he tries to prove to me that he genuinely cares about me and wants a future with me. I know I have no reason to think he's cheating. But I'm so anxious. I'm afraid one day I'll have nagged him too much and lose him.
I hate hurting him and picking fights because I'm scared. How do I get over this paranoia and let it go? I always regret the accusations and the mistrust but I can't help how I feel and I end up lashing out. Any advice?

The 2 weeks I went down there in may it was fine except she kept judging me but eventually I lasted the 2 wks I was down there

In July I went down there again and she judged me , she told my mother where I was at and info as well ( I have a protection order against my mother ) . And she tried to break me and my boyfriend up. So.. kt wasn't even for 3 days and I was out of there

Well this month last week I gave her a second chance. And she does a lot more horrible stuff :
She judged me

She yanked an earbud out of my ear

She told my mother where I was

She smoking which can cause life or death for my health. ( I even told her that I can't be around smoke if I do it Can be life or death for me to remind her) she quit smoking in the house. And in the car. But she still is smoking at her job which I have go go to in order to help her. Just like last night when I was walking past her to get my phone off the charger she didn't bother putting the cigarette way of the opposite direction. She also didn't bother telling people that this is life or death for me. And etc

When I wear a bandana she said that I look like gang/ gangster

Talks about my past. Which honestly doesn't help me. I have flashbacks and she assumes that I dont.

She assumes stuff as well.

She grabbed the back of my neck for like 5 seconds. I said ow what did u do that for she said well do u want me to grab ur boob I said no ur not going to do that either.

And so much more stuff.

Everyday I'm giving her chance after chance and I do want a relationship with my grandmother and I am trying with everything but everyday something has come up.

I told my boyfriend everything. He ain't happy with her.