Search Results: should i still try to pursue her

I graduated out of High School in 2017. Supposed to get into a college by mid 2017.

From a very young age I've been fond of computers - programming, animation, hacking etc. In addition to that I've also been very much interested in science subjects - biology in particular. I was very much interested in becoming a doctor. Loved human psychology...
The paths forked after grade 10. When I was promoted to 11, I had to choose between Computer or Biology. I could keep one and had to ditch the other. I gave it a lot of thought & decided that if I take up biology as a career option, I could still continue with computer as a hobby. So computer became a hobby.
After 12: the time came for college admissions. There was a lot of confusion as a law was passed that a student must compulsorily appear for an exam (held annually) & qualify to pursue with medical as their career. I appeared for the exam didn't qualify. So I decided to wait & prepare for one more year for that illusive exam.

I waited. I prepared. I qualified. But still in vain. About 1.27 million students appeared for the exam, out of which 0.71 million qualified (my rank being around 0.39 million) - But only 54,000 seats are available for that course. Meaning only about 54k students get to do medicals, the rest can go home - dreams turned to dust. Now either you try until the age of 25 (age limit for the exam) to qualify or choose any other stream.
Other options - private colleges, but they're expensive. A cousin of mine enquiries for medical courses, they say: Admission fee: ₹7,000,000 ($104,626.90) Course fee (per year): ₹1,300,000 ($19,430.71) The course being 5.5years longDefinitely not affordable by an ordinary family. What I plan to do now: refer to question update I'm utterly confused. Whether or not to continue with my plan. What should I do? Your valuable advice is very much appreciated

If you have a crush you know won't work out but still have feelings for that person, do you just try your luck with other people until you develop feelings for someone else, or do you wait it out until your feelings for your crush fade? And why do you do so?

I don't find myself falling for or even kind of liking a girl in a romantic sense very often, and the one time it could very well have worked out, I blew it. But I could never see myself just making an attempt anywhere else because it just feels dishonest. I don't want to do that to someone, but just waiting it out is dragging on this stress in my life.

I never pursue a girl unless I develop feelings for her, but that means I get hung up on them and it follows me. Am I going about this the wrong way? I have ny opinions on the matter, but maybe this is an area I should reconsider.

When I look into those eyes, when I see that smile and hear that giggle, I think "how could I not feel this way?" It doesn't help that I also care about her beyond romantic interest

(Pic is not her. Just putting a face to the captivating nature of it all lol)