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For 6 months last year I dated a man on and off. Everything just flowed so natural with him, our chemistry was great. I actually liked him a lot which hadn’t happened in so many years with anyone else.
In November he told me he just wanted to be friends which I said was fine. We still hung out after that. I didn’t want to be friends with benefits though. That’s just not how I wanted it to be and I made it explicitly clear to him. Unfortunately he did not respect that boundary and betrayed my trust in him by touching me inappropriately and without my consent. I felt so violated. He did not apologize and actually made it seem like he was entitled to it. I reported him to the police and he’s well aware of that.
I haven’t talked to him since that happened almost 2 months ago. He has tried to get me to talk to him. The most recent time he told me he wants to talk, hopes to hear from me and that he really misses me. I’m so torn. Part of me misses what we had. My feelings for him were the only real feelings I had in so long. I am trying to move on from him and talk to other guys but honestly I don’t feel the motivation I felt with him. Part of me still wants him. I’m such a forgiving person and I have a feeling he would apologize if I gave him the chance. I feel like because I still have feelings for him that I can’t concentrate on anyone else.
Should I talk to him? Should I give him a chance?

So I’m 24. Have tried taking a few psych medications and currently only rely on one benzodiazepine for anxiety (diagnosed with GAD). I have minor trauma exposure due to parents divorcing when I was 8 and being bullied growing up. All my life I’ve been concerned with my weight and now I’m more in the average/curvy body type range. I still feel I’m huge and unattractive. I have a hard time maintaining relationships. I don’t talk to my family and do not open up to potential friends (current acquaintances). I have a fear of being betrayed by people in my life, which is why I’m generally very closed off and stay to myself. I am always single. Only dated someone short term and the WHOLE TIME I was with him, I accused him of cheating when there was generally no evidence. I typically am paranoid of people in general as previously discussed, especially around guys. Not to mention, I don’t ever make the first move with a guy and play very hard to get, hence a result of my low self esteem and feeling they’re playing me/ not interested. I was not noticed by guys in HS (a vulnerable stage), which is why I tend to use online to talk to guys and avoid socializing in person. My psychiatrist thinks I’m very dramatic and just anxious, the extent of his opinion towards my mental health. I always fear the worst in life (failure and cancer) and worry about things that haven’t happened yet. I self sabotage. My mood swings are all over the place because I think of something negative and believe it is my reality, altering my behavior until something else distracts me. When I ask people, they tend to think I’m more normal than I really think I am. I am just socially anxious, antisocial and think I’m best off alone because I’m so much to deal with. Medication has helped but only so much.

So, our tutor...

He says many things, some of those things are highly disturbing.

By the way, it's a GIRLS ONLY class.

"Men and women can not, and should not be friends. Friends shouldn't be of opposite gender. You girls shouldn't talk to guys, because guys are not good at all, he would try to... You know... be in a relationship with you. I expect you to obey me."

"You girls shouldn't think that 'Why should women take the husband's last name after marriage?' That's how the world works, logic doesn't answer everything!"

"If you run off with a guy to marry, I would never forgive you. Love marriage is wrong on so many levels! Arranged marriages are the best! I love how my mother and father were married, they didn't even see each other before the marriage. You betray your parents if you do it. I expect you to obey me."

He says we shouldn't talk to guys, guys are bad, evil monsters, harassers, etc.

"Girls' favourite colour MUST BE pink or red, it shows femininity. But now a days, we have these weak men who like pink! How sad!"

"You need not to choose your life partner for you. That's your parents' job, they'll help you find your partner, you just have to accept him or decline. Leave it to your parents!"

"Besides, women are the weaker gender, restrictions on you are apt and appropriate! Let me tell you how you are weak, you are physically weaker, shorter and smaller. You are more emotional, while us men tend to be more logical! Men could be more intelligent too, just look at the world around you. Everything is built and is being maintained by men."

"Women can't keep a secret, women also tend to get scared easily! I used to scare the girls of my class by throwing cockroaches and lizards at them, haha!"

"No matter how modern you be, always respect traditions and follow them."

"You women are weak just like Eve, the first female, being punished!"

All of these things were said by him.
I dislike how he expects us to obey him that way. His views...
Or is he right?