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I'm not trying to excuse it but that did clouded my judgment and morals during my childhood years.

It got to the point I was already a bad seed by then. I was beyond a spanking. Punishment would have only gotten me even angrier and more violent than ever. I was steps away from becoming a real monster until intervention came. I just recently found out a grandfather I never knew and a couple other ancestors had mental illnesses as well as personality disorders. One of them was a violent convict and another a child molester.

So basically, I had the genetic make-up (the predisposition to act out if placed in a bad environment) and on top of that was exposed to sexual contents, abuse and a bunch of disturbing things at a young age. As a result I lashed out on things and kids weaker than me and started doing bad stuff at an early age. I suppose my case was both nature and nurture. I have a bad nature in the family and it got combined with a bad nurture too.

This girl and I were best friends since 5th grade. We graduated high school in 2016. Neither of us go to college and we work. We have a lot of great memories together. We live like 5 minutes from each other. We got into a major blowout over something stupid and didn’t talk from May 2016 until July of 2018. She contacted me out of nowhere last year and wanted to hang out and we were fine and I gave her the benefit of the doubt and We both hung out every single day after work but it was too much we started fighting again and she was acting like the mean monster she can be and she wasn’t mentally sane. We said nasty things and broke up in December. Here we are in May and she calls my house and I wasn’t home at the time but my parents answered it. I changed my cell phone number because I got on an entire new plan and she didn’t know it. My parents said to me your 21 years old it’s your life and they don’t really like her but they never really have. I do worry about her but I’m not sure if she’s mentally there or why she is reaching out to me. Should I even bother calling her back and trying to make it work for a 3rd time? She can be very mean and nasty and bossy when she doesn’t get her way. She’s like a ticking time bomb. I’ll admit I can also not be the easiest person to get along with but I also know she has no friends. She is socially awkward as well as myself. I don’t wish anything bad on her and I do worry about her but she told me to kill myself when she was mad and sometimes I feel like she uses me. Her parents are also horrible parents. I don’t know if I should call back. The ball is in my court?