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Long story, my boyfriend and I have been together 8 months. We don’t exist in perfect harmony at all, and we’ve had more than our fair share of problems that weren’t our fault, but caused by outside circumstances, (our families, my mental illness, etc.)
Anyways, this past month or so, my boyfriend has been showing signs of bipolar disorder. He’s been very up and down. One minute he thinks he’s going to be successful and the next he’s down in the dumps for days on end about how he’ll never get anywhere. If I ask him a question he gets agitated easily, and he’s been overusing weed and alcohol.
a week ago he went back to his hometown and asked me for some space because he hadn’t seen his friends in a year and just wanted to focus on them for a few days. I’m all for that, except with anxiety, that’s really difficult. So by Monday, he said that I annoyed him too much and that he was finally done, blocked me on most of social media and didn’t talk to me. I’ve been giving him space, and then two days later he sent me a song that said “he loves me but he needs to stop hurting me and let me move on”
i decided the other day to go out with my GAY friend my boyfriend has met many times before and I posted it on every social media account I had because I’m an extra person and I had to. And my boyfriend got angry simply because he was male, and blocked my remaining accounts.
im just very confused because right before he left to go home he was talking about our future together and the way we would start a family... how can someone lie about that? And how Can I fix this?

for instance if only one if you is ready to date. what should the other do.

I've liked this guy a long time , we are very attracted but i can't tell if he's interested in dating. he was interested but i was not ready for anyone not just him. and we stayed friends, he sort of casually dated but broke up and always came back to me as a special person. i have never dated hed be the first and only person i liked.

he does not talk to other girls, and if one comes up to him he will look only at me, he shares things with me, stares all the time, smiles real big when he sees me -esp when he does not know im looking, tells me when he's free , gives me gifts he makes, competes for attention over other guys im not even into- even my gay friends, asks for advice... BUT when i ask him if he wants to hang out he gets fidgety and avoids answering.

i can't go on this way. i like him so much and i realize I've missed out on many people just thinking of him. i feel idiotic if he isn't actually interested. its not even im in a rush for action i just want to know IF there's a possibility. i think i will just ask if he's interested in dating. if he says no -i move o. is that too harsh? i just dk if i can be friends and not want him.

i avoided asking him on an actual date bc i thought itd ruin our friendship. but i think im wasting time... like we could date without dating. just hang out and let liking each other be enough. but, why can't we be friends and date. of we like each other, dating should not ruin that. if it does we prob just had lust or crush--right?