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I moved up to my boyfriend in New York after we got back together in June this year. Things were going on okay till I started to feel uncomfortable being sexual around him. He started to make me feel bad because I didn't want to and some nights I would wake up to him trying to spread my legs or keep asking me to have sex with him. Here and there I would let him even though I didn't want to. A few times I try to express myself to him and he would cut me off and leave, which led me to have a few anxiety attacks.
On the 11th of September @3 in the morning I made a little joke, "It's early in the morning I'll use my toy tonight you can go back to sleep" and thought he would kid around with me Instead I get this sharp pain on my thigh. Took me a minute to realize he slapped me after he raised his voice at me. I asked him why he hit me and his response was "I didn't hit you I was trying to tap your butt, but missed." Since that night I couldn't sleep, I didn't feel loved or want to be there anymore. I thought he changed after high school.
In our Senior year late January of 2014 he raped me, but said he was just "playing around and didn't mean to do it." This incident led me to depression and bad habits.
So after he hit me (present) I started to get depressed again, having anxiety, and had nobody to talk to. Since I got there I was mostly down in the basement for the two months I stayed there with nothing to do beside watch youtube videos. I made a mistake in sending a guy photos of me (bad habit), yes I do know it's a form of cheating I made a mistake :(. Soon he found out and told his family and friend what I did and made and a lie; for 3 days I was getting mistreated without knowing why until the day I left. Ever since then his whole family been sending me messages. I feel hurt because they never gave me a chance to speak and when I finally said something they call me a cheater, a scum, slut, liar. While he is the Angel and hero in everybody's eyes. What should I do?

So last weekend, me and my boyfriend went out for dinner as usual and then we chilled at a park. Then I came over to his place. And as usual, we have sex.
Sometimes when we are just chilling at his place, we do watch movies or tv show together while cuddling. Not just sex.
But lately, whenever I come to his place, we have sex all the time. We dont watch anything anymore.
I mean maybe coz he has been focusing on his fitness and he goes to gym nearly every night. And I know hardcore gym guys have a high sex drive.
My boyfriend does have a high sex drive but lately its been higher than usual.
When he dropped me home the next day, I confronted him about this
This was our conversation:
Him - hope you had a good time with me babe
Me - yeah I did but i wish we did other things other than sex
Him - so are u bored of me?
Me - nooo i didn't mean that. I just said i want to do other stuff than sex
Him - oh ok.. now i feel bad. I feel like a freak
Me - you are a sex freak, u know it
Him - i feel bad now..
Me - im just telling u how i feel.. i feel used if we dont do other things than sex
Him - but i take u out to dinner and movie every week and I call u every day to talk and say goodnight to you. We been together 1 year. How could u say that im using you?
Me - yeah i know but still... any girl would still feel like this
Him - shouldn't u be happy that im still having sex with u? That means im still interested in you. Usually guys get bored easily with just 1 girl. Im not bored with you. I love having sex with u. Maybe its too much right now coz of my hormones and I've been working out harder than before.
Me - yeah im not complaining about having sex. I love sex with u too but i want to do other things than sex. Dont u understand?
Him - yeah i do.. okay, next time we will do other things like watch movie or something. Please dont think im using you. If i was, i would be with other girls.
Do you think what he's saying can be legit?
Do you think my boyfriend actually feels bad about it?