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Hello, I am 17 years old and about to turn 18 in April. So, I never had a girlfriend (like literally ever; not even a fling). I've been trying to find one for 9 months and it has not been working out at all. I've been rejected about 7 or 8 times now. I tried out dating apps and I fucking despise them because they're unfair for guys. Lately, I've been sliding in girls DM's and I noticed the girls are not as picky. I was talking to this one girl and I got rejected by her because our interests didn't match up, but the physical attraction was there. Lately, I've been thinking that sliding in girls DM's won't work forever. So, I thought about it some more and I thought "If I slide in a girls DM'S, they might already have tinder or whatever app downloaded and why would they settle for me when they can get a dude way more attractive than me". Lately, I've come to a conclusion about me just calling it quits and hanging up the towel. One of my friends have already called it quits for dating. Like with these apps and women's crazy standards, it seems like a very good option to go for. One of my friends is telling me to don't quit. I just don't know what to do. I think that I'm ugly because I used to be made fun of for my face back in middle school. From boys and girls. I Remember one time, one kid looked at my face and said "Dude! What the fuck is wrong with your face?". In college, I noticed one time this girl was trying to avoid me. I don't know because it was my face or not. I did a rate me from 1-10 with 3 girls, one of them gave me a 5, 2nd gave me a 7, and the last one gave me an 8.5. I even thought about when I quit, I just thought about just letting myself to go. I want to bulk up and not worry about being fat. I want to pack on some muscle and get bigger. Should I stop dating and let myself go? If you think I shouldn't, where am I supposed to meet girls?

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Here's a quick rundown. I was a fat socially awkward kid with ADD and Tourettes, wore glasses and loved Star Wars. Perfect recipe for fuck with him soup. Now for the details.

In Elementary school the kids would call me names like fatty, idiot, f****t, fat so, gay, stupid, etc. They would group up and kick my ass at recess, and when the teachers broke it up and sent us to the principal, they would all lie and say that I was the main aggressor and since there were more of them than me and the low IQ principal used a democratic system, I always got in trouble and the staff thought I was a bad kid.
It wasn't just the kids at school, it was also the kids in my neighborhood. They did the same thing, call me names, group up and beat me with sticks and toys, their parents joined in on the name calling. They would kick me out of having fun with them but always invite my nephew.
The reason I never told my mom was because of fear that it'll just get worse because I would be snitching, and I would lie about the bruises.
When I started middle school I was going to a new school where nobody knew me. Since my old school was the only world I knew, starting fresh into this new school I thought it was bully or get bullied, so I became a bully.
Within the first couple of months I slammed a kid into the bleachers at gym class and got detention. For 2 years I called people names and sometimes even hit and pushed them. I did it because I was scared and insecure with myself.
After realizing that there were no bullies in this small town school and I was the only cunt, I became really quiet and withdrawn.
By the end of 8th grade I started coming out of my shell more by joining track & feild. In high school I talked to the people who I bullied and told them about my past and why I wad a bully, and we all became friends, 2 of them being my best friends throughout high school.

I can tell you from personal experience that being a bully feel just as bad a being bullied.