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My older sister never seems to be happy for me when something good happens in my life and she gets low key jealous when people around us start complimenting me about anything from looks, career or love interests.
People have approached me to ask me why does my sister hate me so much. These people are neighbors, church members and family friends. She pretends that she is such a great sister to me in front of my brothers and our parents so they can continue to laud what a wonderful sister she is to her younger siblings.
Some of things she has done were: Ruin my babyshower by using it as a rivalry with her ex bestfriend. By the time that shower ended, my family was divided and my aunt and my cousins didn't speak to us for over 5 years. She lied to everyone including my niece at her sweet 16 saying that she didn't know where I was when all along I was waiting for the ride she promised she'd send for me. My niece balled her eyes out the entire night thinking I flacked on her.
There's so much more but it would be way too long to write down. She's toxic and brings me nothing but negativity and stress to my home. She offers no support whatsoever and it feels like she only wants to sabotage me any chance she gets. She has told me to my face that I am not her sister 3x. When I tell my parents what she does, they say that I am acting this way because of my husband and they accuse me of being boy crazy for putting him first before family. This infuriates me! She's toxic! I feel its time to cut her out of my life. Ain't no way in hell would I have let her stick around this long if she was a friend and not my sister. Am I wrong if I do? Would you so the same? I feel like if I keep her around she's gonna betray me so bad that I may flip out on her.

On one hand he tells me about his life, dreams, saying he wants to take me there to his dream places, telling me he wants to cook with me teaching me how to make that and that, I spend the night don't have sex immediately but talk, joke, sometimes we been out together, talking about what we are, saying he would get jealous if I was with someone , we can talk on the phone long and he says he misses me and he knows I am into him.

On the other hand when he talks about what we are he sounds confused and is like we are seeing each other but no label and we both single. We don't have daily communication and lately I feel it is me initiating more, last night I thought we had plans to meet up but he misunderstood and thought I was at a party and called me 8 am saying he would come when I told him I was home he was just like ok goodnight call you later and he never did and I even texted.

I just had enough. I am tired of thinking about him every damnn minute of the day, getting butterflies when meeting him and falling in love with him if he is not there. So waiting all night (not waiting per se but couldn't sleep thinking about him, and I have a life please big family, friends, school, my hobby that is dance etc) until 5 am I had it and texted him and said something:

I am falling for you, I like you you too much. I can't keep it casual while I am getting feelings. I know you said you want to keep it casual, so I think we should stop seeing each other while we are still good and until you figure out what you want.

Did I make a mistake, I haven't checked my phone since because I am panicking not knowing if I made a mistake, I still want to see him but I can't have a friends with benefits situation while in love with him, also I hope I didn't hurt his feelings, I don't know if he will just say ok cool really cold, be mad and say I am too much and a coward for texting, or call and says these things or want to make it serious to not loose me. Do you think I made a mistake?

As a musician, sometimes I get confused about whether I'm attracted to someone romantically/sexually or if they simply inspire me and/or infatuate me musically. It's hard to explain. It's happened to me many times before and now again: I can't stop thinking about my dance acquaintance.

As a dancer, I like to have a good lead, so it's attractive to me when a guy can lead well. And I like it when they're sexy when they dance. But, I don't know if that's an attraction I have toward the person or toward the art of dancing, or, perhaps, both.

It's not like I only fall for musicians. I've fallen for others with other talents and passions.

I like a guy who has a talent/passion and is good at what he does. So maybe I am really falling for this guy. I don't know.

I don't find him particularly attractive and I honestly don't know much about him except that he's a dancer/dance teacher who's good at leading (in dance).

But when he talks to me he always calls me "senorita" with his latin charms and when he texts me I feel butterflies. I love latin music and dance, so I'm thinking maybe that's the only reason... Maybe...

Last night, he, our dance crew and I attended his goodbye party (he's leaving the US), and I just wanted to dance with him the whole time and would feel jealous when he'd dance with all the other girls there.

He's leaving the country, and I've been really upset about it. At first I truly believed it was just because we have good chemistry when we dance and also because I generally get attached to the people in my life, but after last night I'm not sure if that's all it is...

It doesn't help how he told me I looked "amazing" or "sexy" when I sent him videos of us dancing last night.

Tell me this just seems like a musician thing and nothing real.