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OK well I think I may need to break up with my girlfriend because religious differences and also diffiences of what we want in life in general. However the problem is that I'm totally 100% in love with her. We been going out over a year and it's been the best year of my life and she has help me grow and been an amazing partner all the way. I also have helped her a lot in many ways and I know for a fact that she also truly loves me and feels safer with me than anyone else. Never even had a serious fight. I can't stand the thought of loosing her completely however my brain telling me to leave before things get bad and we resent each other for our differences. Ideally I would like to be her friend even if we broke up the thought of losing her or making her feel like I aboned her brakes my heart. I know things woudnt be the same and we coudnt be as close but I would like to be able to have some contact. However before this I was on the sides of friends can't be exs but know I don't know. I love and care deeply about her she my best friend but my guy telling me things arnt right for the long run.

1. Am 25 years old
2. 5 feet 6 inches in height
3. Overweight at the moment weighing in the 220s (working on losing the weight)
4. On social security disability and unemployed
5. Lives at home still
6. I am a self taught amateur programmer at the moment
7. I am enrolled in uni and start classes on Tuesday
8. I lean conservative politically.
9. I voted for Donald Trump and will again
10. I am southern (come with the accent and everything)
11. I have Aspergers and mental health issues (they are improving overtime)
12. I have a criminal conviction of stalking and harassment (I served 3 years probation for it)
13. I have been hospitalized over 13 times in my life involuntarily
14. I still crush on high school girls
15. I am a loving, giving person who would fall madly in love when I do
16. I am not a virgin. I lost my virginity at age 20 to a 16 year old girl who was also a virgin. She never wanted anything to do with me after that.
17. I never had an actual girlfriend. While I am not a sexual virgin, I am a relationship virgin.

I seek the following:
I seek an attractive girl 17 or older (but probably at least 18) who has never had a romantic bond before. Meaning no previous boyfriends or even male best friends whom she was close to and had feelings for in her youth. That is the main requirement. Essentially, I want a girl that has never had her first love before. This has nothing to do with her sexual past, but everything to do with who she shared her heart with before.

I prefer (but not necissarily a requirement) a shy girl. A girl who is submissive and cute would be nice.