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I've been dating my boyfriend for one year.
He's the longest relationship I've ever had & the only person I've actually only dated besides dating someone in the past that was overly controlling and manipulative, I ended the relationship.

My current boyfriend is very rude.
he's constently on the computer watching netflix, playing video games & his best friend is over every day from 8am - 1am!
I love video games, but my life is becoming very repetitive and boring because he is lazy & he admits it.

I've became very depressed and loosing interest in life, I've also gained weight.

When I first met my boyfriend he was the sweetest guy I've ever met & now he's the rudest guy I've ever met.

He yells at me anytime I ask a simple question about anything.

He yells at me if I'm trying to give him affection when he's busy playing video games (which is all day.)

We rarely have sex & once he said "you would open your legs to anyone! you are only using me for sex, fucking whore." after planning a romantic night for us.

He calls me stupid, idiot & retard whenever I tell him that I'm afraid he will hurt me someday.

He calls me a bitch everytime he's mad at me.

I've tried leaving & he says "please don't leave me, lets work on our relationship, I love you very much. etc ."

I want to break up with my current boyfriend.. but I feel trapped.

I could care less about him keeping my furniture, TV's, etc .

I don't want to leave behind my cats.
My mother wouldn't allow me to bring cats into her home.

I want to move back with my mother, because I was happier.

I don't want to move back because I'm 22 years old and I would feel childish. :(

My boyfriend is 21.

I am afraid.. He swings at me, punches doors, throws things. :(

He's punched the bed right next to my face while laying down and it scared me very much.

He's only a nice guy when we have extra money or my birthday.

Please help.