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The reason they are chasing is because they are desperate for that validation right?

I’ll speak from my own personal experience here. Back when I was desperate for women, I had a very low self esteem. So much so to the point where I couldn’t even approach them, because I felt I was beneath them. And part of the contributor was the fact that I hadn’t yet convinced myself of my own self worth, which meant that I was then dependent on the word of somebody else.

In the time since I’ve re-examined myself and my behaviors which has fundamentally transformed me as a person. Beforehand I was too focused on how society didn’t match my standards, instead of learning to work with what we had in common. I also had no understanding of how my social behaviors isolated me from other people. I’ve since learned to focus my attention on the one person I can change: Myself 😄

As a result of the above I’ve become a much happier person, and I am tempted to believe that I am a much higher value man than I was before, considering how I’ve been getting results. 👍

Long story short that leads to this:

I go over to my friends to drink tonight. Towards the end we're all playing smash. I absolutely suck ass which fine I admit multiple times while playing. My friends brother gets into calling me shit constantly and I'm not backing down because regardless of him actually doing the best, he's only won 1 game. Out of the 5 games most of the time it was me saying "well you aren't winning" every time he called me bad.

This ended up with him getting in my face saying "I will woop your ass" and my response was "I'm not putting my hands on you". After this he chases me out the door (I'm not staying near him regardless) I sprain my ankle walking down the steps and he calls me an idiot for that... cool. I drank a shit ton, don't' feel safe crashing on their couch so I drove home smashed. Stupid I know... I didn't know what else to do.

I knew drinking around people I don't know would be a bad idea because I don't know these people minus the one friend. Now I'm sitting here crying my eyes out because I topped off the shitty idea of hanging out with my friend with driving home drunk. I keep reading bulshit online "Men can cry" but it doesn't make me feel better. Ignoring how I feel and playing League would make me feel better. Crying my sadness out over how bad the night turned out isn't helping me. Whoever said crying is "Okay" was wrong. I'd rather ignore it, move on and be happy again.