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Me and my boyfriend have been dating for almost 3 years. But here's the problem, I've had anorexia since I was 15. I'm now 21. At 15 I never liked my body image cuz I was constantly told that I was fat, overweight, should lose weight. Next to know, I started starving myself 24/7. By 15, I used to weigh around 123-ish pounds. By the time I was 19, I weighed a total of 40kg (about 89 pounds rounding). My weight has gone back up and down after many visits to the hospital to get force fed. No I'm not proud of it. At 20, I got a bit better but never fully recovered. It's still like this. I'll eat and be fine, then could be a week and I'm already considering calories, weight, body size, etc. I don't think my boyfriend understands that dealing with such a harmful and difficult E. D. can be such a hard thing to get through cuz it's essentially an addiction to weight loss and a thin body from psychological, emotional, and mental issues. Yes I'm aware what I'm doing is absolutely wrong in every sort of way. But my boyfriend always teases me in what he calls a playful way, but what I call an offensive way. I told him this and he got angry. He thinks it's so simple to put food in your mouth and eat when in reality of an anorexia, it's not since that's the fear. Plus, he's known the entire time that I've had an eating disorder for almost 7 years (turning 22 very soon), and he still doesn't understand. Maybe it's just a guy thing, I don't know. But please tell me who's being wrong. Me cuz I have an E. D., or him cuz he's failing to understand anorexia mentally, emotionally, physically, and cognitively. Or even the both of us.

im not wanting to receive any hate because anorexia is a serious health condition that affects many at such young ages today. I know my wrongs, but if you haven't lived with anorexia before, please don't hate on me cuz it's truly a difficult struggle for me from my past. Yes I'm in therapy to get help cuz it's driving me insane. I don't talk to my parents about it cuz they only make it worse

Okay so I LOVE food XD but I gain a lot of weight and I'm trying to stop eating to much I have had anorexia because I felt to fat and I just got a new doctor that fat shames me and she said "maybe you should go to a health clinic to learn to eat properly" and that just hurt me so bad and I just felt so bad and my self hate got worse and it was just awful and I don't know what to do... Like I don't know if I should just don't care or if I should do something about this... Because I feel like everyone looks at me with disgust and I can't eat in public anymore because I feel fat... And I get bullied a lot by my class mates because I'm a little thicker and I'm also tiny so it doesn't go very well together... And some people tell me that I will never get loved for who I am and that I'm to fat to get loved... And I don't know anymore I feel so broken... And I don't know if I should start eating less or if I should just don't care and just be happy... I don't know