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I'm in love, no need to sugar coat it. It's unrequited (to the best of my knowledge) and it's so hard. It's not the first time this has happened.. I liked a guy for five years that I didn't know well. We were close as kids but I liked the idea of him rather than truly him because I didn't truly know him as we grew older and apart. I moved on, and it took confirmation of nothing ever happening, but it did eventually pass. I now like this other guy and at the beginning I was so aware of everything so I decided to approach every step of this as prayerfully and as honestly as possible. I want to Glorify God with everything I do, and although marriage and that guy seem like a shiny jewel, it's nothing compared to the love I have for God. That doesn't make this painless though. He's in my Bible study group, I see him at church, I serve in kids programs alongside him, and any time I'm hanging with my friend group, he's there. I can't ignore him. I don't want to either, because I know that God is in charge and that he will resolve my feelings and my circumstances. I know that we go through trials in life that grow our faith, and I know I must choose one or the other, but I guess due to a lot of circumstances (which I don't have time or space to get into), right now is just a very difficult and pressing time for me in life. I like him for the right reasons, but I feel so heartbroken and heavy around him. And as I mentioned before, that's very often. I'm considering leaving my group, which would be so hard because it's like family to me, but I don't know what trial would bring God more glory. Leaving and trusting him through the pain in that, or staying and continuing to feel heartbroken and unable to say/do anything. I know that God is ultimately good and I'm so excited to see His plans for me, but right now I feel like I have to make an active choice in either staying or leaving for another group even if both choices are equally difficult for different reasons. Any advice?