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So i decided that when my ex was gonna come over I was just going to lay there and talk to him and not do/ try to do anything that would seem like we are still in a relationship...

so when he came to see me today and it went amazing. No one cried and we joked around like we use to...

BUT He made me cuddle with him half way throw, when I rolled way from him and said I wasn't gonna look at him ever again he was like "baby come back" and when he would say something to jokingly set me off he would get all cute and say "love you" and right before he left he climb on top of me and gave me a huge hug and wouldn't let go then finally he pulled away and went to go kiss me and caught himself and just buried his face in my cheek for a minute than left...

like he started off sitting at the end of my bed than started resting his head on my legs than moved my laptop on the floor than laid beside and than was like "come hither child" and pulled me over to cuddle. and well I was cuddling with him he was holding me pretty tightly... but still stops himself from kissing me after making it 100% obvious that he wanted to than just leaves awkwardly... It was weird and now I am soooo confused

P. S. he broke up with me because he is living an hour away because of school, school and work is really stressful for him right now so everything is up in the air for him. He said maybe we can try again when he moves back home in May...

I live in a white & jap nieghborhood and it sucks its very few blacks in my city and im the only black in my neighborhood i moved in my dreamhouse 4months ago i had a get together 2weeks ago i did play loud rap music from 3-9pm on a Saturday and invited friends over no alcohol just barbeque yes all my friends where black but not ghetto my nieghbor wich is white seen my friends they said hi he just stared while checking his mail... at 8 the police was called he said the music needed to be turned down are they would take are plugs... after they left we kept the music down till 9... the music was all the way off at 9... the next morning my nieghbor was gettiing a white tall fence built around his house laaaaame... i was really offended... i said goodmorning he just stared i then shook my head and got my newspaper wich was thrown in the gutter for the 6th time... everyone seems scared of me in my nieghbor hood i dont know why i even look innocent i want to move but this is my dream house im living in... do anyone feel intimidated by blacks whats the first thing that comes to mind when you hear black people? Be completely honest when voting thanks😄 or feel free to comment (i believe there will always be racism where ever u go) the first thing THAT comes to my mind is STRONG💪 but the whole human race is beautiful and we all need to get together as one and make this world beautiful stop the racism where all family in gods eyes godbless☝☝☝👏

Long story short this guy lied to me over a course of a few months saying when he moved back to our state we would be together so i sent him lots of bad pics and he even mentioned having a collection. about 2 weeks b4 he came he said on the phone that he was gonna record us having sex. i laughed about it and took it as a joke because he always tries putting things in my head. Then a few days b4 he came to to visit our state he called me on the phone with his friend and was acting like a COMPLETE ******! he humiliated me and let his friend do it too i was disgusted and didn't talk to him when he came back to state but he convinced me to see him & i was scared he would post my pics. While I was walking to his house i texted him i was near and he called me then came outside looking at me from a distance and then after he told me to come in through the front door he RAN back inside as fast as he could. He took like 3 mins to open the door for me and I noticed he was very giggly/smiley. while we were having sex it seemed as if he were a p*rnstar . We have had sex before and it was never like that. I felt as if we were out in the open too because we did it in his living room and he kept having us walk around the house naked. When we kinda took a quick break frm having sex he was looking out the back window (which couldnt have seen us) and said that his friend may have stopped by. And the most disturbing part of all i heard him on the phone with his friend and he said "could you here (my name) and his friend was like ( why would u say that near her? and his tone of voice sounded like "you blew it" I still think there's a chance he didn't record it and that maybe his friend was just listening and watching.