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Hi friends,
I saw a girl when I was 16 and found her too cute and I wished if I can spend rest of my life with her. But I knew that it was impossible because there were no chances that we will even talk to each.

Coincidentally we met when I was 22. That was totally coincident, I never ran behind her not even behind any girl.

After that we were friends for next 20 months. In those periods I proposed her and she told I don't have any feeling for you (she told this because earlier she had a break up with a guy after that she had not had any trust on love) but you are very nice guy so I would like to spend my life with you.

That time we were doing our bachelor course and decided that we will talk to our parents regarding this once we will get a good job. Those days we were living very happy with each other and she was also very happy with me and she always used to tell me that I have never seen a guy like that (I don't have smoking/drinking habit also I don't have any girl in my life, I am intelligent in study).

When our graduation completed, next day itself she told that this relationship don't have any future now we should stop here and after that she stopped talking/texting to me.

First one year I was totally disturbed, I attempted for suicide I send her so many mails (she changed her number, she blocked me on FB).

Now it became 3 years since then but still I have same feeling and pain in my heart. I belong to a very good and reputed family. I have decided that I will not marry anyone other than her.

My problem is that sometimes she comes in my dreams and also sometimes I miss her too much and cry and feel too much pain in my heart, that time I feel like to commit suicide.

I don't know whether she will come back in my life or not but it is my believe that she will sure come back and I am waiting for her eagerly.

Please help me but don't tell to forget her, I can't and also don't want to do so.