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My stepdad is so cruel to his son's environment that even some of his conservative peers can't stand him. My halfbrother is neither gay nor bisexual, but his father tends to act highly offended whenever the word "gay," "bisexual," or "queer" is audible in the video in a non-derogatory way. My brother is allowed to watch videos on YouTube and TikTok, but he gets reprimanded if he doesn't change the channel if he accidentally watches a video that contains those words or any swear words.

This is so freaking odd because my stepdad at least tolerates my mom's gay black friend. He was even on our HBO accounts list. If so, why does my stepdad continue to be homophobic? Even my mom said DaBaby was "homophobic" while at the dinner table, and my stepdad said that DaBaby was ignorant about how gay people go through. But ever since a while later on vacation when he heard "bisexual" on a TikTok, my stepdad told my brother to change the video.

My stepdad is racist too (but he denied it every time I called him out; I no longer call him out because I don't want to get disowned or anything), loves to make fun of poor black and brown people's struggles and uses the N-word with a hard er, which is why my brother says it a lot. They both call black people monkeys and thugs and gang members, and they also really freaking hate Asians more than anyone. Asians (especially the Chinese) are their worst enemy, 10,000x worse than Blacks. My Armenian stepdad at least tolerates Black people and their opinions, but he doesn't like to get close to a Chinese person.

My stepdad grew up in a really rich household to be honest, but he got sued and bankrupt from his first business when he was discriminating against people of color. His personality is identical to, or worse than, that of Donald Trump's. His countless number of lawsuits have made him and his family broke. He let his own dad die in 2001 without even fundraisers. And he pretends he never disrespected his family. Kiss my ass.

Should emotional puzzle pieces align just right.. after all... easy feels good...

If so, it means you don't have to change...

... context...
I've had a friendzone that felt... so easy going, fun, no pain. I learned nothing... time went by... I don't recall changing as I wasn't challenged emotionally as I remained in my comfort zone... one conditioned from the wounds of life. Do you feel fine as you are? My "soul mate" as one described, was a match from hell. She enabled me to be suspended in my flawed state of being as time wasted away.

I've had two romantic relationships since wit lots of pain, the dangling friendzone was poison, but real issues resulted from my emotional flaws in intimate relationships.

My girlfriend today challenges me on moral, value, integrity. She saw foundation cracks early... testing my perceptions was hard, I denied when she tested... avoidance, perception. It hurt her greatly to struggle against "the waves" of my wounded subconscious. I changed, after hours or weeks of fighting.

Serious flaws in my deeper inner self were exposed like the archeologists uncover old relics. Wounds of long ago, stuff that felt "normal" in me, controlled me... limited me... guided me in the wrong directions. Fear... of intimacy, shame. Trusting the wrong people and mis trusting... traced to early life bonding issues with mother. Avoidant personality, passive aggressive... wounds from being sensitive and being hurt and inability to fight back. Just a few. The roots of all is deep emotional wounding in childhood. Point being...

I was warned about how relationships are... work. I didn't understand. Being challenged with love is good.. for your own and mutual growth! Does it end? Is life like a game of donkey kong... conquor one level to get to another, try not to fall down to the bottom... or jump when it's too hard.