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I'm not trying to excuse it but that did clouded my judgment and morals during my childhood years.

It got to the point I was already a bad seed by then. I was beyond a spanking. Punishment would have only gotten me even angrier and more violent than ever. I was steps away from becoming a real monster until intervention came. I just recently found out a grandfather I never knew and a couple other ancestors had mental illnesses as well as personality disorders. One of them was a violent convict and another a child molester.

So basically, I had the genetic make-up (the predisposition to act out if placed in a bad environment) and on top of that was exposed to sexual contents, abuse and a bunch of disturbing things at a young age. As a result I lashed out on things and kids weaker than me and started doing bad stuff at an early age. I suppose my case was both nature and nurture. I have a bad nature in the family and it got combined with a bad nurture too.

My boyfriend is 19 and I'm 25. He was abused heavily by his family (for example, his father won't let him call him dad, he has to call him Sir or Mr. Roberts) so I understand his habits and pet peeves. Like he has to have all the lights on because he's afraid of the dark and he's OCD about things being neat and straight (because his father used to beat him if he messed up something in their house). He's in therapy and he is a great boyfriend. Anyway, I've started breastfeeding for my niece (my sister can't breastfeed because she's on medication) and long story short, he asked if he could breastfeed from me. I know people do it with their spouses/partners but I'm not so sure about it myself. Mostly because of the mental background he has because he wasn't nurtured just his parents or family. I don't want him to start seeing me as a motherly figure rather than a girlfriend.