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I'm 19 I'm dating a 40 year old.

He is going through a divorce

His kids are 18 & 21

His "ex" wife used to: steal his money, follow him through tracking his phone, flirt with his friends, not allow him to spend time alone with his own kids, she forced her first pregnancy when she was 16 (held him in, both of their faults), hooked up with one of his friends, and is a manipulative alcoholic freak (all of this is me saying it in the nicest way possible).

She recently got knocked up (she is 38) by one of my bf's old friends

when we met he was still married. I told him I wasn't looking for a relationship and it was none of my business what was going on in his personal life and he said the same. However, shortly after we hooked up and started talking more things got a little serious. I TOLD HIM to take a break (as we got caught together by his wife and soon the separation began, although he lived with her for 2 1/2 months before we both moved to a friend of his) and be single but he said there was no point and is either we were together or we weren't. So we began spending more time together and soon became "official."

During this whole time (August to now) I have had access to his phone, and his texts. THIS WHOLE TIME he has been saying that he loves me, wants to marry me, has never felt this way about anyone before, meanwhile before she got pregnant, he was texting her things like: 'I look like a n** lover' (I'm half white, half black), I will always love and respect you, you are the best thing that ever happened to me (he texted her those two things THEN sent them to me the SAME day), you were my little girl first, he told her about how he's been crying over his situation, then during the holidays they made several jokes at my expense, targeting my age and race... there are SO many things I'm leaving out but basically I don't believe in love anymore and I don't understand why he chose me to drag through his own personal hell