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I have a problem. I want to be noticeably taller, bigger and more muscular than my ideal girlfriend, and by extension, I want my ideal girlfriend to be considerably shorter, smaller and slimmer than me. A lot taller than her, enough to rub the underside of my chin against the top of her head when I hold her close to me, and broader than her, as well as a lot heavier and stronger than her, to the extent where I can princess-carry her around or carry her over my shoulder. Those are the things I dream about, the imagined images which turn me on the most of all. I NEED to feel powerful, dominant- if I can't, then I can't be aroused. Trouble is, I'm only 5'7" tall. With the circumferences of my shoulders, chest, waist, hips and thighs measuring in at only 41", 35", 29.5", 31.5" and 19.5" respectively (shoulder width= 17.5") And while I can comfortably lift, walk around with and climb flights of stairs carrying weights considerably heavier than myself, and I have chiselled, well-defined abs, pecs and muscles everywhere, I still only weigh in at a meagre 120lbs (54kg).

Which means that, to meet my ideal criteria, to stand any chance of doing these things with her and to be taller, bigger and muscular enough in comparison to her for me to be aroused by the mental imagery of having sex with her, in the real world, she'd have to be 4'11" or shorter, and under 95lbs (43kg), with a waist slimmer than my own (27" or less). Her bust, hips and thighs don't matter all that much to me, but even so, do I have any chance of ever finding any girl (over the age of 16) who's small and slim enough to fit within these size parameters, here in the UK, where landwhales seem to be the norm these days? Or any chance of her being the slightest bit attracted to me, given how short, lightweight and slender I am? Or should I give up; are my desired measurements for my ideal girl too strict and unreasonable?

I was born on the Capricorn-Aquarius Cusp, aka 'The Cusp of Mystery and Imagination', and the description more or less fits me to a T. People like me are known for being disciplined, patient, loyal, traditional, ambitious, offbeat, progressive, cautious, practical, friendly, realistic, curious, stable, funny, confident, unique, attractive, competitive and multi-talented- and they excel at learning, creative and intellectual pursuits, and at business affairs. However, they may also be rebellious, narrow-minded, controlling, cold, harsh, depressed, stubborn, secretive, aloof and over-critical, and typically find it harder to cope with negative experiences, societal barriers, and with forming and maintaining personal relationships.

I can be flamboyant and exciting, especially in private, but tend to come across as quite quiet, reserved, responsible and unassuming in public. I'm extremely visual, with vivid dreams and fantasies that make the real world seem dull in comparison, serving as my inspiration for creativity in writing, art and other endeavors. I need creative outlets, and have a deep need to communicate what I experience, as well as to change the world for the better. I can be critical or bossy, with very high standards and expectations of everyone, especially myself- setting lofty goals for myself, and refusing to give up on them.

However, I can be, and have been, thrown out of balance by unexpected challenges and too many negative experiences. I find it difficult to let go of negative criticism (including self-criticism) and lack of understanding from others; my pride (or lack thereof) is extremely important to me. I feel a need for security, and need to be in control and to be dominant to feel secure; but at the same time, I can't compromise on my own personal freedoms- and finding the right balance between security and freedom in personal relationship can be incredibly difficult. So, would any of you girls ever date a guy like that- a guy like me?