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I remember when I dated these two girls.. (No not at the same damn time it was separately) I dated them and when they both broke up with my ass they went to another guy. I was soo sprung and inlove that I pulled out all the tricks in the book to get each of them back, I sent flowers and can't and I'm very poetic and I showed them I really cared and I'm sorry for the way I've treated them. I even watched the food network channel and made italian food and stuff and one of the girls loved sushi so I learned how to make sushi... I was desperate to get those girls back. I swore I was winning because they were hangin out with me and going places with me and coming over and saying all this sweet stuff, dedicating songs to me and shit lol! then one day they each chose the other guy. It happened TWICE!!! I was destroyed on the inside and I isolated myself for months!. only work and home no parties. And I drank a lot. (Long story short), It hurt soo much on the inside that I began to hate them because I felt abandoned and betrayed. Losing a girl to me is nothing but Losing someone I love with my heart and soul is like someone cutting off my arm or a leg... It's bee a long time but I still hate them til this very day and I'd probably let them die If they were hanging off a cliff. Is it just me that feels this type of hate or are there others out there that share my passion?

When I think of a women, I imagine pure beauty! The way she talks and laughs, t to the way she walks and runs. I'm the guy that notices little details. I won't point them out but I will make personal memories in my mind about her. I try to remember everything she liked and dislikes. Her happiness is my happiness, just to knowing I am the cause of that smile is enough to boost me up ten fold! There is no such thing as perfection but I strive to get as close to perfection as possible, Especially when it's concerning someone I want or want to keep in my life. Does this all sound weird? Does it make me emo? I'd like to think of myself as someone who takes extra time out of his schedule to see that special someone smile. Even if you catch me talking to other girls, I'm as loyal as a German Shepherd but when I attack I'm as nimble as cat and as fierce as a Li0n lol.😂 Warning, I do have the heart of the wolf because I do show extreme aggression when doubled crossed. You might label me cold blooded. You might dertermine I'm a heartless man with troublesome intentions. I try not to be physical period because I don't know my own strength. I'm never physical with a lover unless it's in the bedroom, Yes I bite, l can be very dominate but I keep it hidden because I hate knowing that I am the cause of someone's pain. I wrote this because there's one person who has my full attention. I won't say her name but you can't possibly imagine how she's got me reacting. I sometimes feel inhuman because I'm reading into emotions and verbal responses as if I'm a stalker... Yes it makes no sense but I feel like I'm stalking my prey... It's not her beauty it's this vibe, this aura. It sorrounds me like a cocoon. It's as sweet as the perfume of a desert flower and as toxic as a desert rose but my nose is in search and destroy mode. Haha I write like this when I'm bored so tell me, Emo, strange and intense, or beautiful and inspiring lol or dumb or all of the above. please be kind... 😂��l