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Met this girl (24) online who moved to my city 2 years ago for work and things moved fast. One 3 hour dinner at a restaurant & I got the impression that she was a complete "goody two shoes." We had so many values in common... so I thought :/
2nd date she invited me over and we slept together, which caught me off guard. She initiated everything, but I went with it b/c it felt special. I didn't finish and she said "I'm sorry I'm not very good at this" which got me thinking she had not been with many people.
2 wks later we were in a relationship & the only thing I knew about her past was her one and only 9 month relationship & some dating that didn't work out. A week later at 11:30pm she gets a missed call & text from a guy saying "Hey, I miss you." She explained it was a guy she dated earlier in the year. No big deal she didn't even reply.

A week ago and a text form her ex for a valid reason created another awkward situation, which led to me asking dangerous questions. How old she was when she lost her virginity & how many guys she had slept with? I didn't think I would get unsavory answers, but I did.

She lost her V at 20/21 (not a big deal), told me I was the 8th guy she had slept with & the last guy was 4/5 months before me. With her only being 24 & a 9 month relationship in there I did the math. From the time she broke up with her ex there was an 18 month period where she slept with 6 guys. Very unsavory info, but it gets worse... 2 of them were one night stands where she invited the guys over to her apmt the very first time, the other 4 she slept with after only 2-4 dates and one turned into a friends with benefits situation for 2 weeks :/

We have already BOTH fallen for each other hard and I'm devastated. She feels AWFUL, said she was lonely & admits the mistakes & how stupid she was. I feel like she was only after sex, had no respect for herself, didn't learn from the mistakes & am having a hard time seeing her as the same person I thought she was.

I'm not a fuck boy but I have bad luck with girls. I've been talking to this girl lately and she claimed her ex was abusive. She was with him for 4 years and we've been talking for 2 months. She told me she wanted to get away from him, yet he keeps stalking her. She got drunk a month ago and he f***** her. At that point I lost my respect for her, but it got me thinking why do I always have this issue? Girls I talk to always end back up with their exes. She claims she been trying to break away from him, but admitted she still has some feelings for him. She told me she just wants to be friends because she doesn't wanna cheat on me. She's cold af to me now and treats me like a stranger. I honestly didn't do a damn thing. If I did, I'd admit it. My last girlfriend got back with her ex too because she said she had feelings still for him. I always seem to attract broken girls with a bad history. This girl I've been talking to claimed she was raped, abused, her family hates her, suicidal, etc... I've found out she is a bad liar though and a lot of this is made up stuff she did for attention. She gets along fine with her family and she was never abused. She wants to get back with someone who abuses her and threatens to kill her as she claims. Do girls just find fuck boys attractive. I'm not necessarily a 'nice guy' because I can be an asshole, but I'm thinking maybe i'd have better luck if I changed myself lmao? Fr. It's rather annoying.