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I was with my boyfriend for about 7 months and we were really close friends before we began dsting. This is basically my first love. So i dont really know how to handle it. He wasn't mature enough for a relationship i felt like i forced him but he said he wanted it. He was constantly with this other girl, holding her hand. It started arguments. We fought a lot becausehe would talk to her and i didn't trust them together. She had a name out for herself. I delt with cutting issues. I was putting a lot on myself. Trying to care for him and help him with school, at the same time i was hurting because i knew something was going on. One day he told me he had went to her house...
It tore me up. People kept telling me "you really gonna stress over this highschool shit " i was caught in my emotions. We eventuallt broke up. He said he didn't want a relationship. I started seeing them on instagram and snapchat together. She sleeps over his house. The more it killed me inside. I tried to commit suicide, stupid idea. I wasn't just struggling with him i was struggling with school, family, myself. I lost myself. My parents were really upset. Suprisingly so was he. I knew he still cared about me, his feelings werent there but mine were. We began to be friends but it was rocky because we would hear rumors which started arguments. Which led him to say he didn't want anything to do with me. I had a panic attack because iwasnt ready to. loose someone. so close to me, he actually understood me. The next day i got into an argument with him and the girl he cheated on me with, it escalated and i hit him.. i felt terrible. I let my emotions controlme i shouldn't havedone it. I started getting threats from his friends. I've been reslly depressed since. I tried to talk to him but he never replies. I miss him. And i feel alone. Seeing him with other girls makes me wanna throw up. He doesn't even look at me. I hate what he did to me but i hate that im not with himm

My ex and I were together for 9 months. There was an instant connection and in a month or less he asked me to be his girlfriend. Our relationship was great, we traveled, laughed all the time, met each other's friends and family- he became my best friend. Then towards our final two months together I started feeling like I didn't deserve him- like he was too good to be true. I started doing whatever to accommodate him. That was followed by feeling to unattractive to be with him. One day I even asked him to break up with me while we were on a romantic vacation.

The week before last I told him I wouldn't be coming over anymore. He was extremely confused. I was feeling very emotional and down. I said that only because I wanted more attention from him. We took a little space over the weekend. Then on Monday morning he told me how unhappy I seemed to be and that he thought it was because he wasn't giving me what I needed. He asked for some time to think. A few days later he broke up with me in tears.

I tried explaining how I feel was me not him and I apologized for communicating my feelings in such a reckless, hurtful way. I assures him I was happy with him. When I met to pick up my things I told him I had made an appointment to see a therapist and he was happy to hear I was getting help but he still said he couldn't deal with everything but would like to be friends.

I want him back. Is there a chance or have I burned that bridge?