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so I was married to an abusive husband, and I became really good friends with this guy, we later ended up admitting our feelings for each other and he told me I was absolutely gorgeous. we decided to just stay friends out of respect for my marriage and I tried to get my husband to sort out his anger, me and this guy stayed friends going for walks etc but never let our feelings get in the way, I tried helping him get a girlfriend, he always said he although he wasn't a vrigin, his next sex he wanted to be his wife ( he is a Christian) anyway forward on a couple of month after having my last straw with my husband we split up and he is out of my life. me and my friend on a walk one evening end up hugging lots and he kisses me head and I can feel we are going to kiss but it doesn't happens but he does say cute things like ' I'd be in a relationship with a woman that has come out of a marriage if I loved her' , then a couple of weeks later we get flirty over Snapchat and then I bump Into him whilst drunk, we start hugging and stuff but next thing he is kissing my neck and touching me he freaks out and steps back then goes back and kisses me and touches me again. when I get back home I ask him what would you do to me he says I'd kiss you. I then don't hear from him for two months, he avoids me in every way possible delete me off Facebook won't reply to my messages. I found out he has been doing coke and ectasy and he keeps trying to get this girl that he turned out when he was sober because ' I am just not attracted to her' (she kept asking him out) I don't get it because after we done our stuff I told him I'm ok with being a casual thing despite our feelings or just staying friends. but he completely ignored me, but then when he gets on his drugs he keeps trying to bed this girl. I know when he gets drunk/drugs he does say I need to bed ' a s*** t'. so why won't he do it with me? The other day we spent untill 5am talking to each other then he just went quiet again xx