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I'm a girl, he's a guy. We're police officers. We've been best friends & work partners for 7 years. He's been with me through a divorce, a near fatal car accident & then the birth of my child, I've been with him through a divorce, the depression that followed & recently, a marriage. He's the most loyal, honest, moral man i know, until now. The thing is, we've always been respectful, he's always been attractive to me but I never acknowledged it & he did the same. For 7 years we were perfect sibling like friends. Well, last year he was drinking & we were texting, as usual & he told me he used to think about marrying me & that he's been attracted to me since the day we met. He began to name times, conversations & events that were significant to him. He told me he wished we would have gotten together & he regrets not speaking up. I was but overwhelmingly flattered. I confessed that I felt the same. Since then we have engaged in a fantasy "what if" relationship, complete with sexting. The issue im having is this, he remarried his ex wife a week after he confessed to me. They are trying to have a baby. I am in a ltr with a man who is not very good to me but I've never cheated on him or considered it until now. My best friend wants to have an affair with me. I want him, I would love to be with him because we love each other & want each other so much. I dont know how we could be detached though & I'm not sure who I'm more concerned about, him or me. I realize how selfish this is, we both agree that the right outweighs the wrong. If we do this am I going to lose my best friend? If we don't do this will he find someone else? I'm confused, kind of.

So I have an ex friends with benefits . We were really close before we started hooking up, we hung out almost every weekend for a few months. He claimed I was getting too attached, but I had just ended a four year relationship with another guy previous to hooking up with this guy. Granted I wasn't in a great place to be seeing anyone and wasn't really myself, but he ended it. When I would see him, he would act like nothing had happened even though we ended things on bad terms. Right after he ended it, he started publicly dating this girl with the same first and middle name as me, as if him seeing another girl didn't piss me off enough. It made me feel insecure because he never wanted to be public with me and said he wasn't looking for a relationship but he jumped into one after ending things. When we went to college, he didn't text me but religiously checked my snapchat stories and liked my Instagram posts. He snap chatted me a few random times during the year but I didn't respond. Right before Christmas break he texted me asking to hang out and saying that he missed me. I didn't know if he was still together with his ex at the time but he confirmed that they weren't. He didn't even use her name, he just called her "my ex". As I was naturally curious, i took him up on his offer but also brought one of my best friends with me who was also close with him. I get in the car and within seconds he's talking about his sex stories from school! But then he went to say that I should go and visit him at college! I didn't hear anything from him after that because he had a short break but recently he sent me a snapchat of him and another girl! I know he is a jerk and I would never hook up with him again but his behavior is annoying and I don't know what his deal is! Is he interested in being friends with benefits again, does he want to be friends or is he trying to make me jealous? Thanks for reading! :)