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(Don't judge me)

Basically I want a guy to feed me. It is really strange I know but I have some kind of eating disorder and weigh like 40 kgs.

I am afraid of food. Only if someone feeds me I feel somewhat OK with meals, because it comes with love (in my strange mind) and turns me on a little.

There is this guy who likes me a lot. I'm scared of opening up to him about this. Should I ask him to feed me?

Sometimes, when I'm really in a bad mood I'm eating "bad food" without enjoying it. I just do it and can't stop myself and even don't like how it taste. But when feel okay I'm trying to have healthy lifestyle, I don't eat fastfood and products with sugar and stuff like that. I just don't want to do it and know how bad it's for human.
So what did I lead to.. I don't think, that's a big problem or food disorder, because it's happening once or twice on whole year. But I'm starting to think, that people who in everyday life eat "bad food" are trying to punish themselves or don't appreciate themselves. What do you think?

The thing is we had an argument with my boyfriend because I always arrive late and take more time to do things. The truth is I take antidepressants since Im 12 because of depression and eating disorders I used to have and thats the reason Im sleepy and slower. Should I tell him that? Or it will scare him away. Thanks!