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He was a colleague, he never showed any interest in me, never even talked or greeted me. I once said I wasn't attracted by smokers and he said that he and one of his colleague (who had a crush on me) would never have a chance with me.
We both went to a party where he started calling me his girlfriend and would put his arm on my shoulder, I was laughing at the situation but he took me home, we kissed and I refused to have sex.

I wasn't really into him, I thought he would get tired but he kept on contacting me. We weren't close at work but I could feel him looking at me and he would secretly pat my shoulder or hug me. We agreed that we would not tell anyone about us.

We had sex and he said he loved me, repeatly asking me to say it back (I had a hard time, I never really said it to any exes) and to go out with him. He introduced me to his close friends and met my best friend, we could barely see each other because of work but we were good.
He is a very quiet person, attentive and patient but extremly jealous, he would never try to show it tho. I really loved when he would kiss my forehead and how irritated he was when I teased him. So I started to fall hard.

His contract was ending and he was anxious about leaving me behind, he always said I would find someone else.
We fought a lot during the last month and when I heard he was assigned to another branch I accepted to be transferred to the latest one. When we made up, it was a huge dilemma for him because it's a very big branch and he wasn't confident enough to request a transfer but wanted us to stay together.
We fought again, he stopped talking to me. So I treated it as a way to break up.

He flew back home without a goodbye but told my flatmate he signed into the new branch. And the night before he drunkly asked to call me but his friends refused.

We will meet again in May for the branch opening.
I am so lost, a part of me wants to move on but another thinks what if...