Search Results: losing a chance with a guy

OK well I met a girl on here quite a while ago and we liked each other for a long time, and met in person a few times and dated for a while. she broke up with me a month ago today (coincidence) and ever since I've been a terrible friend to her. the breakup probably wasn't 100% my fault but I probably could've kept us together if I wasn't a bad bf. basically we had a talk and I suddenly could only think about losing her and I created so much drama in our relationship about it that it's probably one of the reasons y she decided to end it.

we're still friends but I tried to hurt myself after we broke up I was so upset (don't get all religious on me I'm done with those thoughts) but it's probably going to haunt her opinion of me forever.

now there is a new guy that added her on Facebook that she really seems to like and that she may try to date if she gets the chance. she says she has stronger feelings for me still but she needs to figure things out. I asked if id have another chance and she says she doesn't know. probably not because I hurt her so bad but can never tell her how sorry I am.

she seems to like that he's older because he may get to see her more if they date, but I could probably see her even more than him because of my situation.

now my question is basically simple. I keep hurting her and apologizing, and I don't want to hurt her anymore. I still care about her and am still in love with her, but I feel like maybe saying goodbye would hurt her less than I have. I don't know if I have the balls to delete her tho cause I care about her so much but I don't wanna hurt her. I kinda hope she reads this but doubt she will so she'd know how sorry I am. so if anybody could give me sum advice that would b great. also if anybody needs an update to explain anything just lemme know thanks.