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My guy friend and I have a stormy relationship. We both are defensive and know how to push each other's buttons. We fight intensely because we are both so stubborn and think we're right but we always make up. The littlest thing I say to him makes him fly off the handle and threaten to not talk to me anymore or to quit all the clubs we do together. Last time I tried to talk to him after he said he couldn't deal with me anymore and he said there was nothing to talk about. That really hurt me because I felt he didn't care about me anymore. Then I sent him this long text saying how I understand his stressful life and I just want to see him more.
We fight mostly because he has so many commitments that I barely see him and he cancels on our school activities sometimes because he has other obligations.

I know we have deep feelings for each other or we'd give up on the relationship. He says he likes to fight with me because it gives him a warm feeling inside. I feel that too, but for me it's passion. Does he mean the same thing? I know when he makes me so mad I either want to choke him or kiss him, or both!

We hug usually twice a day at school. When he hugs other guys and girls, he hugs the guys enthusiastically but the girls in a brotherly way. He and I always hug pressed up against each other's chests, tightly and for at least 5-10 seconds. They seem to go on forever and we usually end up off balance and kind of dancing/wobbling around like drunks. Or he'll hug me aggressively and I have to brace myself to not fall backward. He also rubs his cheek on mine and one day he was tired so I held him and he nuzzled his head on my chest (I have big boobs) while I rubbed his back. He's asked to use my chest as a pillow before.

He's said he loves me and hates me at times, so maybe he's confused? We've said we love each other as friends but I know I'm attracted to him as more. Is it possible that he has feelings for me too? Other guys don't hug me like that.