Search Results: he says things and then push me away

Before anyone tries to judge, I'm a person who is very guarded, but I tend to care a lot once I let that guard down.

To cut a very long story short, I met a guy that fell in love with me. At the time I wasn't in a great position for a relationship... and I continuously pushed him away. I denied our relationship status as a couple, and I guess you could say I didn't treat the relationship like it meant much to me.

Anyway, basically the guy got sick of my behaviour. So yeah, he left. And I never realised I'd made him feel as low as I had. This was a WHOLE year ago. And to this day? No closure.

We've spoke on and off, flirted on and off and I'm sick of it. I'm sick of this in the middle nonsense. Arguing then not arguing, friends then not friends. And? I've initiated the contact every time over the past year and i feel he's not making any effort.

And recently? He kissed someone new, and I'm not gonna lie, finding this out hurt. I feel like my remaining trust for him got shattered. And now I'm just fed up. Can't see how I can resolve it.

So yeah, should I be the one to initiate my own closure? You know, so we're on the same page. And actually, mainly for my own sanity.