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My now boyfriend recently cheated on me in revenge because I had slept with someone before we had became official, had a title or commitment towards each other, however in a small amount of time we did create a lot of memories, we were sleeping with each other and generally spent a lot of time together. We became official 4-6 months after the incident and it is now a year later and he has decided to sleep with another girl in revenge of what I did with also knowing that I am 5 months pregnant with our son. He hasn't been the easiest person and ever since he has known I have been to hell and back, most of our relationship problems were based on that one incident, at least once a week we argued or fought about it, he said many hurtful things towards me and it really got to the point that to the I held a lot of self hate towards myself, I got really depressed and hated the person I was because of how he portrayed me. In this duration of time I have made a lot of sarcrafices in order for him to realise that I am serious about our relationship, that I really do love him, that I am a faithful and a loyal person when in a committed relationship. I have deactivated my social media sites, I stopped do not leave my home unless it's to see him or to go to appointments, I blocked my guy best friends number and stopped speaking to him, I do not speak to any males at all and I only ever speak to my boyfriend and my female friend on the regular and so fourth, he has now slept with someone and thinks he has done nothing wrong because I had also slept with someone but my problem is that we weren't together when I did. His mentality is that we are both just as bad as each other and now it's time to move on and start over with our relationship. I'm an understanding person and if I was in the wrong from the beginning I would be able to push past what he has done but at the moment he has this way of making me feel like he done what he has done because of me and I am to blame.