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27F, the longest I was with someone was a few months. I have only ever met men on dating apps, I don’t have friends or a social life. I had to use dating apps because men just don’t ever approach me. I know women get approached doing everyday things like groceries, going to the bookstore etc. I’m told I’m cute, even when I was a little skinnier I assumed that would lead to more attention. I get messages on the apps but my reality has been: good looking guys only want casual, the decent looking ones are too short for me and the meh ones have a decent personality but I’m not physically attracted to them. I have tried bumble after years of expecting guys to approach first, I have gotten a good amount of responses recently but it continues to die out early on. I just go through periods where I feel the need to take a step back and test the guys interest. Or periods where I want companionship and for a few weeks, I have no desire to talk to any guy. Some say self sabotage I say it’s a gut instinct knowing it’s doomed to fail.

Fresh friendship, a few months in, we bonded over being counselors to youth at a camp. I had no intentions of even remotely considering someone so young for me, but somehow I find myself seriously attracted to him and despite the age difference, we surprisingly have so much in common. He's even discussed how, despite his age, he's ready to find the one, marry and have kids, that he's tired of games with those his age. (not that I've even remotely brought that subject up to him, as we are not currently involved romantically).

I think there are times when it's apparent and undeniable when you have that chemistry with someone and you both can feel it and you know, but it's left unsaid. He recently just found out that my ex was 5 years younger than me and he honestly seemed shocked by it and looked over at my close friend and said, "well she sure likes the young one's doesn't she?" to which she teasingly replied while looking at him, "she sure does." He is 20, about to be 21 and I am 29 soon to be 30, like I said, a significant age difference. I know this is totally unorthodox. We made friends with one another before we knew the age difference.

The chemistry, the bonding, the flirting, it's all there, except he is not taking steps to advance, and neither am I, since I am the woman and I'm older, I do not want to come across as weird or overstep. Is it possible that while there may be attraction and all the right connections there, that he just will not consider it because of our age difference? Guys, what's your opinion? If you bonded so amazing with someone older than you, even if you had feelings, would you refuse to take it any further because of the age difference?