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I am very much in love with my boyfriend. Kind of obsessed. I think about him all the time and he comes first in my life. I put him above the things I need to be doing. I have cried because I'm scared about losing him sometimes. I feel like I'll never find another guy like him. We have a similar mindset and we agree and have the same opinions/feelings about topics and stuff. We are in an online relationship. I have also cried cause I love him so much and have cried when he told me sweet things. I sometimes feel as if I love him too much more than he loves me. I wish we were together in person and we met in person instead of online. I sometimes crave getting hugs from him or just hanging out with him in general. I get jealous knowing there are people who get to see him everyday and that could easily hang out with him. We never met but I want to meet him so bad and I've never felt this way with anyone else. I usually am the type to push people away and he's the first guy and person in general I ever let this close to my heart. He's a good person and he listens to me, understands me, and doesn't judge me though I am weird and kind of delayed compared to most people my age. He makes me feel like I'm at home. I feel more comfortable talking to him than with my own family. I see him as part of my family cause he's so close to my heart that I can't see anyone else but him. I feel like I'd be devastated if he ever left or if something happened between us. I really love him. But sometimes I wonder if he feels the same way. Have you ever felt this way for someone? Have you ever cried cause you loved them this much or felt afraid to lose them to someone or just in general? How do you stop loving someone so much? It;s kind of scaring me. I want him forever.