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And how f***ed up is my life?

I'll try and sum myself up quickly then tell you my problem. I'm 17, currently at college (live in the UK so no confusion). I've had one girlfriend before but I was only like 13/14 so it wasn't really a proper relationship as in 'love', but we did do few sexual things but not sex. Stopped going out after a year. I'm a geeky guy, I'm into computer games and I like watching TV shows loke Doctor Who and things like that. I have moderate intelligence (got 2A's 2B's at end of last year, A in full a level I did a year early in maths and rest are phys, bio and chem at AS) but I don't think I'm actually that smart. I'm pretty shy but I have forced myself into situations where I'm not comfortable so I will be okay for uni and have been getting better on that front. I feel very stressed about applying to uni and college work which is why I'm often up till like 1am. I'm the kind of guy that doesn't admit to anything for feat of being considered and outcast due to the small number of friends I have.

I like this girl. She's into video games and action movies like James Bond and she likes to watch F1 and football. We used to be really good friends then for like a yer we barely spoke but since set ember we have gotten closer again. I'm in year 13 and I had asked her out in year 7, first of high school, but it was a no. Then like a year later had girlfriend as explained above, after had more sexual urges and started sexting basically a girl that I knew liked me and then stopped when she outright said she liked me, so we stopped talking. Year 10/11 me and this girl I like and asked out before we're getting closer and we went to prom together but since school had ended we didn't speak barely, then at prom she was with her friends and she didn't want us to sit near each other because it would be awkward for me since I didn't really know her friends then. After prom where we didn't really see each other or speak other than before and on the way there've basically pretty much stopped talking for year 12 just because I felt like I was annoying her (she never replied to texts I sent or ever sent one first). Year 12, start college and met some new girls, spoke to them and basically started sexting her since she like me too, even though I like this girl. Things go wrong because of this and we stop sexting. Start stop of the sexting happens often and I feel bad for it. I trust her and have told her personal stuff but I see her as just a good friend. So basically I think I have liked this girl since year 7 to year 13 now but she doesn't get text me first even about college work anymore so I don't think she likes me, should I ask her out Because I can't stop thinking about her? Also, poll on how f***ed up do you think my life is on scale of 1-10, 10 being very f***ed up.