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I`ve posted here a few times about my overly flirtatious boyfriend. He was flirting around with his coworker telling his friend that she was going to get him in trouble with me, dat a** and blah blah blah, going to lunch with her (with and without other coworkers and genuinely just making her day while I was going through hell. He flirted around with other girls and it got pretty petty. I gave him several chances to just be truthful because I knew how he was. Quite honestly I wouldn`t have been pissed if he told me what kind of relationship he wanted to turn this into if he told me sooner and I let him know if he wanted to act a certain way with other women to just tell me so I could decide if I wanted to talk to other people as well because I`d rather not put all my eggs in a basket with a hole in it. Every time I got a feeling something wasn`t right he would just say she was a friend and she hugged him like she hugged everyone at most, a few months later he admitted things did get a little weird and she flirted with him and the girl asked him if he had a girlfriend which I know he gave her a dry yes through messages (which I`m sure was his first and last mention of me after she asked to see how far she could get because he acted so available) . A few more months later we decide to air things out and see if we could salvage anything, we were talking yesterday and why did this boy tell me he rubbed her feet because she said they hurt at work like he had to do it for her and she couldn`t go to a doctor if it was that bad knowing she liked him?

I`m still deciding if I want to try again or just keep him as company or whatever to pass time at this point so while I`m trying to respect him for telling me the truth even though he delayed it, I can`t figure out why he thought that it was ok to do something that intimate so casually (can I even call it casual?) while he`s with me, he hadn`t even been working there a whole year. Should I be objective about this or what?

I used to have some feelings for one of my best friends and he felt the same way, but I backed off. He had a girlfriend plus I didn't want to lose the friendship we had - those aren't the reasons why I backed off though. I thought it was, but I realize now that it was more or less because I was afraid that it was turning into something, and I got scared. I'm twenty and I've never been in a real relationship before (real=no boundaries + lasting longer than a year at least), and I got scared that we would actually work out (am I making sense to ya'll?). I guess things were progressing fast between us yet he had a girlfriend, and I felt like I didn't know what I was doing.

I eventually forced myself to give up, and I was successful. However, I've started to have feelings for him again after spending a whole day with him and his family/other friends on his college graduation day (he held an afterparty afterwards). That day, I learnt more about him and about his family, and I realized all I'd been missing out on. During the party, I found myself jealous when other girls would flirt with him and get all excited about our newly single mutual friend. By the end of the day, I realized I'd fallen for him again. I recently said goodbye to a man, so at that time I thought it might just be from the adrenaline from my heartbreak as well as from other things like family issues going on in my life right now - but I still feel the same, so I guess it's not the adrenaline.

That night, I couldn't sleep. A few nights later, I went crazy and told him through Skype (since I'd fled the country for summer break). We tried to arrange a time to meet in person before I left, but couldn't. The result? Bad. He froze for a second, then he told me he no longer has feelings for me and that he's not looking for a relationship right now because he just broke up with the girlfriend I mentioned at the beginning. I shouldn't have told him. Now, he feels awkward and we used to chat