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I've been in only one relationship before... And it ended pretty horribly so I must not know how to be a proper girlfriend yet. But anyways, this is my story so far.

Me and this guy got together on discord after meeting each other for a few days... I don't know why but I guess we really hit it off. He was the one to be shy whenever we met and friended each other. He came to the group chat I was on because he liked another girl which is my online bestfriend. I ain't going to say names because I don't know who's reading this...

So, anyways. Me and my friend did a reverse tug of war around him because we both cared so much about each other and how the other was feeling. And everytime I texted him... I just felt guilty until something happened. He thought my friend was married, so he asked me if I wanted to be his girlfriend. I responded with a yes...

The thing was that I couldn't manage to text him... Being way too shy. That's just how I am in a relationship for the first part. And he told me he was upset one time... But it was pretty vague so I had to keep trying to pick up on what he'd said.

That was until soon I told my other online friend who'm I trusted his word ever since the first time, he was gay. And I know people of all sexualities so I ain't meaning anything against it! Many gay people that I know are always so happy and fun to be around. So I didn't feel guilty going to him because I knew that he only cared about me as a friend.

And that's where I got my confidence to speak to my partner about all of this and apologize... And I do apologize a lot. Especially online because the first time you meet me is actually how I really am. I'm way too submissive and happy and... Caring also clingy. But it doesn't seem like he's going to open up... I've searched up so many things on how to help my boyfriend feel happy and all the stuff I could think about for dating. He seems to still like my Bestfriend which I still ship. What did I do wrong? Please tell me...

I'm a woman on a dating app, average looking, but a woman on a dating app no less so I've had people swiping me right (which I found surprising, but I suppose it's common for dating apps?) However whenever I find someone attractive or interesting I chicken out and never end up swiping right. (I have to also mention that I'm not looking for hookups, I'm looking for a relationship, not the primary use for dating apps for most, I know, but I gave it a try anyway since I haven't had much luck otherwise). I've gained the confidence to actually swipe a good dozen of times and I managed to match once, but the conversation between me and him was incredibly awkward. It clearly just meant that we're not alike at all and things wouldn't have worked out, but it felt so uncomfortable. I don't know how to act and appear like myself on these apps, it feels so different than if we were to talk face to face in real life.
But a lot of people find partners online these days. Should I ditch online dating and hope for the best eventually finding someone in real life by pure luck or should I try to get better at online dating?