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(Read all) Yes, it has gotten to the point where I'm asking strangers on the internet for life advice. Anyways, I'm having a super hard time making a decision, and it has been getting inside my head, so I wanted some insight. So:
In 6th grade and beginning of 7th (I'm a freshman now, which I know is very young), I fell into some really bad girl drama which turned into bullying, which started making me depressed (I know it sounds exagerrated that a 12yr old would be depressed), and I, being spineless, let them run me out of the school. By the first month of 7th grade, I had dropped out and moved to online school. Back then, I had started riding horses, and when I started doing online school, my trainer offered me an internship of sorts. So for 2 years, I have been doing online school, and have gotten super competitive for horse-back riding. I ride at least 6 horses a day, which is equivalent for an athlete to practice for at least 6 hours everyday, and have gotten amazing opportunities. My trainer thinks I could be really big in this sport. This helped me find out how to be myself, and am a totally different person. Now the hard part. Right before freshman year, I decided I wanted to try public school again. So, I told everyone that is what I was doing, but then I, being spineless, started regretting the decision and backed out, because I wanted to keep riding 6 horses a day and try to get an opportunity to show at some of the bigger shows. Since then, I keep wondering what it would be like to be a normal kid. Then I found out about this early college program my trainer's kid did, where you can basically graduate with an associate's degree and after a semester of high school classes, you are basically in college and get to schedule things for yourself. But for the first semester it is 9-3, and lots of homework. So I would only practice for an hour, maybe 2, and it is really important to me to keep getting better. But is it worth it for flexible scheduling later?