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This is my first job. I’ve worked at this job for 7 months. I’m a server/runner. There is an employee there that nobody really likes. She is mean and bullies everyone and my boss won’t do anything about it even my general manager. She also shows up 15-30 minutes late every single day. I’ve gotten written up 3 times over being late and I’m constantly late all the time. Boss told me last week this is my last chance and if I’m late one more time I’m getting the boot. He also said I’ve heard from numerous people that you don’t like working here and if that’s the case that’s fine you can quit and no harm done. Maybe this isn’t the right job for you. Anyways I’ve been 15 minutes early every day since. Today out of the blue I got a call from my general manager saying instead of reporting to work tomorrow at 9 to go straight to HR building and speak to this girl and we will go from there. Nobody will get back to me on what it’s about and I called the HR building and they are saying that they aren’t aware of any scheduled meetings tomorrow and to call my general manager. Nobody is answering. I asked my coworker who is friends with my floor manager and boss and she said she hasn’t heard anything going around and it’s been super busy at work all morning (it has there are 3 events going on) and she said fingers crossed you don’t get fired but I don’t know what you would’ve done that’s so awful. I was talking to coworkers about bringing fart spray and spraying it on (coworker nobody likes) stuff and they all laughed but I’m positive nobody would rat on me because it’s just dumb. Yesterday when I was serving a guy spilled his drink all over him and I ran away laughing and couldn’t get my shit together for like 5 minutes and someone else had to clean it up. I also don’t look happy at work but I’m nice to everyone it’s just I have RBF. I don't know.

Generally I'm not a happy person. I'm very lonely and I care too much about what people say about me. I'm actually a very depressed, unhappy person but due to my personality people would never guess in a million years I was depressed. I'm trying to get better but majority of my life I was bullied and never had opportunities to go places. People don't understand how much vebal abuse and constant bullying can really hurt and damage someone. In fact I'm so damaged by my past and current life I don't think I can ever get better and be normal and functional. I Literally hear voices everyday constantly telling me horrble things. It's been very painful for me, getting over bullying seems impossible... I think I'm just so unhappy it's starting to dissolve my brain and eventually I don't think I'll be able to think logically anymore. I wonder if one day I'm just going to snap... :/