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Mine is very poor as I have very severe clinical and bipolar depression, anxiety, and anger issues. How is yours?

I was given heavy pain medication when I had a medical emergency last week, most notable being morphine and fentanyl. I had surgery and was given more morphine periodically until I was discharged the next day. I've never done drugs before, but now I feel a dependence on the fentanyl since it played a major role in stopping the worst pain I've ever felt in my entire life. I've had bipolar and clinical depression for a very long time now, all attempts to fix either issue has proven unsuccessful. I've been thinking a lot about how much it helped when they put it into my IV. I'm on a pain medication for recovery, but I feel a dependence on morphine and fentanyl. When I take my pain med they provided, it doesn't hurt until I get up, so I'd call this more of a desire based on a need for more morphine and fentanyl. I've felt that if they can stop that kind of physical pain, maybe they can help with my depression. Should I resist the urge or give in? How do I resist or obtain them?

I have clinical depression and I can't find joy in anything. I have a life threatening respiratory disease, I have no friends, I've never been on a date, and I'm always seen as the second option in literally everything by everyone. The lack of help and endless effort from people trying to feed off me has built tons of hate into my heart. I want to kill all of those people, but I know it won't be over until every last one of them are gone, which one person couldn't do alone. The more things get worse, the more I feel like I have nothing to lose by striking back. A small part of me thinks there's a little hope that I can have a life. How can I make that a reality? Or should I start making people take ownership for what they've done?

I'm not clinically depressed (at least I'm not sure if I have it or not until I meet with my Psychiatrist in a few more days to see if she can diagnose something in me) but I occasionally get a few anxiety attacks (worrying about work, college, and being around certain people) that I bottle up or let a little bit of out out at home by walking it off inside my house. There are times where my anxiety attacks can turn into anger, frustration, and social isolation. I often always keep everything to myself either out of shame or to avoid giving other people problems.

Often times, I always go to my boxing gym to train, get in-shape, and fight competitively in the amateurs as one of my outlets for all of this.

Does this sound like a turn off to you ladies?