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I know y'all have rose this rollercoster of a relationship with us, but can someone give me hope. I used to think i’d be fine without him, but last night he almost left and it really hit me how much i’d miss him.

We began dating April 2017. ldr, but we spent a day together at the theme park (no wonder our relationship is a rollercoaster) in July. We were so into eachother in April but i started doubting us in May when he couldnt keep his word on our meeting date. Anyways, once we met, we fell super hard again because i was so close to breaking up the week before. The date helped us get through Aug/Sept. However, jealousy kicked in Oct and it was the worst month ever. I had suicidal thoughts and all. Nov/Dec werent bad too. He ruined our 1st Christmas.

Then we met for 5 days January and it helped bring us back up. I fell super hard for him all over again, but messed up and told him Oct caused me to fall out of love a bit. He took it hard and even tho i told him i was building back up, by time i fell back in love this March, he told me April, he no longer loved me like he used to. That really hurt because i do EVERYTHING for this dude. Now we’re at a standstill. We talked over everything yesterday. He doesn't want kids til much later cause he wants just “us” time come next year. I want kids like 2020 at the latest. I figured maybe we shouldn't talk about it til honeymoon night. I told him im gettng pregnant but then he got mad and said that can't happen that soon. I know we’re all over the place.

I ain desperate cuz i know i can get dudes, bt none are him. I hate that he gamed too much back then, bt in terms of other factors, he's a rare gem. I left an “almost bf” to be with him because he promised me the things the other guy wouldn't give. He promised me commitment/marriage/kids/waiting til marriage. he's lived up to 2 of them and he claims the marriage will come next year. But now he wants to push kids back some years. I won't push them back. I do love him tho

So me and my ex boyfriend broke up 2 weeks ago because he felt that he was unhappy in the relationship due to constant arguing and he's under depression too
We broke up in good terms though so we didn't remove each other on social media
He still likes some of my new pictures and watches my stories on instagram
So 1 week later, he messaged me:
"hey im sorry for everything, im just under depression and doctors prescribed me pills so i can't have a partner in my life right now, but we can still be friends and go out to the movies, take care"
And then i replied:
"hey, hope you're ok, but yeah i need my space, so i can't see you in the meantime, hopefully you'll respect and understand that"
and then he replied:
"okay"
So tomorrow is Valentines day and before we broke up, we both wanted to watch this movie called Black panther
Today, he texted me out of no where:
"hey, I want to watch black panther tomorrow, do you want to come? If not, i will go by myself"
I haven't texted him back because im still confused on what to say
If i should go or not
Why does he want to go with me?
Does he not remember that its valentines day tomorrow?
Out of all days, he picked tomorrow?
I still have feelings for him by the way :\

Im in an LDR. We haven't been together a full year yet (almost 9 months), but we hope to see eachother 2-3 times a year, maybe once in the early Spring, late Summer, and sometime in the winter or fall.

My friends already think we talk a ridiculous amount lol. At night we talk around 10pm until we fall asleep together at like 2am. Then we sleep on speaker phone, possibly snoring in eachothers ear until we wake at 9am to burning hot smartphones to whisper in eachothers ear: I love you.

From there we talk til like 12 noon and then separate. He’ll go to work or play his game and i’ll do nothing really lmao. Then we meet back up by text or phone around 5 or 6pm to talk again before taking another break before we meet back up at 10 or 11.

Sometimes i feel clingy but this was all his idea, im just rolling with it. After 9 months i can tell it bothers him a bit now since he requested we possibly not talk 5/6pm everyday like we used to. I mean we’ve been on the phone everyday since we met. He came across clingy at first too, but hey now im lovin it. Although it sucks he said we won't talk much on Christmas. Brings back bad memories with potential boyfriend #1 but yea... 😒

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