Im sure we’ve all had a role model who eventually let us down, right? Well in this take i will talk about my role model... MY MOTHER.
A FALLEN ANGEL
My grandparents are great now that they have a “second chance” at being a better grandparent than parents. My mom was verbally and physically abused by them then kicked out. She was later taken in by diff family members.
She eventually met my dad and had a great thing going. But she missed her relationship with her parents more. After HS, they reconnected. My grandmother, putting her feelings before anyone elses as usual, envied my moms new found relationship with my dad. So my grandmother did everything she could to break my parents up. They got engaged. But my mom was later convinced my dad cheated after finding blonde hair, and so she left him while pregnant.
AN ANGEL RISES...
Raised by my mother/grandparents, I grew up spoiled but was the sweetest child and loved by mostly eveyone. I didn't even miss my dad. I knew he existed and he came to my bdays up until age 3, but he wasn't really somehing i thought about. My mother and I were inseparable. I was her mini-me: shy, sweet, tomboyish, artistic, dressed alike. And I loved being the only child. I loved being raised by a single mom. She was all mine and i was all hers.
AN ANGEL FALLS...
When i turned 5, she started dating this military dude who she grew up with. Her mom was best friends with his. Bt both mothers plotted together to break them up. I hated this guy. He was rude to me and told my mom not to support his son because he would never support her daughter. I remember one road trip, i cried the whole time having to see them together and yet she kicked me out the car and made me ride home with someone else just to satisfy him. Anyways, My mom gets pregnant, and almost dies having to go under C-section. She survives and im happy i get to name my sis but im sad i have to share her now. But then, After she gives birth, my sister’s father comes into the room and says “I need to tell you something. I just got married over the weekend. Im sorry bt i have a wife now and we can't raise this child together”. Smh, savage af.
AN ANGEL RISES...
So she's single again but is doing great as a mother, solely focused on her kids, and with help of her parents.
AN ANGEL FALLS...
She reconnects with someone who used to crush on her, but he's 8 years younger. I never thought i could relate to this but i’ll get to that later. Anyways, she falls for this bad boy and moves him in with us. However, my grandparents house catches on fire and they have to move in with us too. Luckily we had this huge house so you could barely tell when someone else was home. Anyways, my grandma struggles to break up this relationship. Bt he and my mom have an on/off relationship for 8 years (my grandparents only stayed living with us for a year). He lives off us, barely paying a bill. She even buys him a car yet we’re struggling to keep our own transportation repaired. He tells her he’ll only marry her if she gives him a baby. But she had her tubes tied after my sis, so her and this guy were both just living off false hope. He stays In and out of jail, Planting drugs in my moms car, verbally abusing her like her parents did. I hated who she became while with him. So weakminded, allowing herself to be taken advantage of (something that heavily influenced my first relationship). She disrespected her daughters with how they had sex in the house and we had to hear her moan loudly each night. She started smoking for him (she quit like a year later). He also controlled what friends i could talk to and he wouldn't let my guy friends call my phone. He talked her into buying dogs and letting them live in the house although im 100% scared of animals.
AN ANGEL RISES...
He leaves her for good since she can't have kids. she's back to the good mom I know and everything's going swell. However i admit, she messed up because
• She told us we didn't have to go to college
(I ended up going due to academic scholarships)
• She didn't make us get jobs while in school
(Now i have a degree but am struggling with jobhunting since i have no prior job experience)
• She didn't educate us about sex
(I had to learn by myself and it was the best way)
• she's influenced me to be weakminded with my first boyfriend at age 14 who takes advantage of me sexually...
AN ANGEL FALLS...
Now we’re having financial probs because she's trying to pay off the bills she created with her ex and my grandparents can't help as much as they used to since theyre retired and their 401k didn't workout like hoped. My dad stopped paying child support and she let him slide instead of going to court. My sisters dad has PTSD now afer time in the military and he told my mom to never bring my sister around again. He pays child support super late and she won't take him to court either. Now she's relying on me to help pay a lot of bills because she refuses to quit her $19k annually job. Im trying to help her out but also save to move out. I meet a supposedly great guy on G@G whos 8 years older than me (something i never thought i’d go for). My mom turns into her mom and tries to ruin my relationship with him because she's lonely and bitter. She tells me not to date someone 8 years older but recall she dated someone 8 years younger.
AN ANGEL FALLS FURTHER...
She reconnects with an ex from HS who left her his freshmen year of college because he wanted to hoe around. He went and got somebody pregnant and married them. 25 years later he's divorcing her and my mom reaches out to him to tell him happy bday. He and my mom start hooking up and he offers her a buttload of money. She gets used to it but offers to pay him back... at first. When he Constantly reminds her she doesn't have to. Some months later he asked her to pay for herself for one date. She told him that it was his job to pay (something she tells me i should tell my boyfriend but i refuse because i prefer equality). I found it a bit rude after all he had done for her. Anyways, he tells her theyre not gonna work and leaves her. Now more like her mother, she automatically turns bitter and tries to sabotage my new relationship with my current boyfriend. She cleans out my savings by having me take out more and more monthly to help with bills/food/transportation. She doesn't want me moving out, leaving her to be alone since she's single again. So she tries to take my money to assure i dont go anywhere.
WILL THE ANGEL EVER RISE?
So that's where I am now. A beautiful mother ruined by the parents and men she let take advantage of her. She's now money-hungry and bitter, and out to ruin my savings/relationship like her parents did her. Its sad this is where we are when #MothersDay is coming up soon :( Im trying not to end up weak like her but im scared i may. #FeelFreeToList below any role model you had who failed you. I know not all of you are “believers” but God is my one and only role model now. #FamilyForever #ShareURexperience