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I know this guy, says he's rich at least and says he's been with a lot of women, including models, college graduates, and actors. He's rich and successful. ( he's old enough to be my dad) I'm not rich or successful. He wants to get to know me because he thinks I'm interesting. But I have this strange thing with myself. I tend to feel inferior to friends who I think did more in their life than I did or who are smarter. I actually thought about what if this man was my boyfriend. He's rich, successful. And he's had so many girlfriends before me and it makes me feel insecure. He might leave me for a smarter, prettier girl or cheat. I'd prefer being with a guy that no one notices. The guy that barely has friends, the guy that girls and other people often overlook. I want him to be that special diamond that's only for me. He's nice, loving, funny makes a decent income but he doesn't get much attention from people, I want a guy that gets most of his attention from his family, two or three friends and me. I want him to be a virgin with little to no sex partners. Dating or being in a relationship with someone who's filthy rich, tall, good looking and extremely successful to the point he's popular. I don't like that. I really don't like the fact that guys I might date have ex's who are prettier than me. Is it bad that things like this bother me? I'd date a poor, depressed dude whos a virgin and I'd be happy but for some reason the thought of having sex with a rich dude makes me feel uncomfortable and insecure and I don't know why. What's wrong with me?

instant attraction
totally myself
talked for hours
met
was amazing
went in for kiss - we make out
felt so good
talked about sex
said he's been with girls but is a virgin n wants to save it for a special someone
he's religious
talked more
showed more interest
full of compliments and expressed his feelings
says he wants me to take his virginity
i did
he enjoyed but had the virgin panic of std's, pregnancy, also sinned his religion
kept talking
few days after, he blocked me from his accounts
talked less
he fell silent
he got himself a girlfriend in less than a week
I found out through a name in his bio
I sent a bitchy message
he accepted it n knew he had done wrong
met
i returned his hoodie
he genuinely looked sad about losing me n was kicking himself for it
they broke up
he messaged me an apology
we caught up
we started fresh
it still hurt
past experiences made me paranoid n have trust issues
he was flirting with others
time passed
i was the only girl in the picture
he wanted to pop the question
exam season came
he had to focus and pause us
promised we would get together in summer
said he would be loyal
bumped into him in town with girl just a friend but on the one day he was allowed out n didn't tell me
I argued a few times and said I was done
he panics and has genuine sadness of losing me
gets protective when other guys message me
talked less bc of exams
ends up talking and meeting another girl
they break up
he messages me
time passes
he says stuff like 'i want this' and puts so much effort in
inviting me out (but im always busy)
bumped into him and we had a quick chat and he was loving flirty not just down right sexual
supposed to go to his free house
I haven't turned up
he wanted to know if i was menstruating
and for me to bring protection after me saying we're not going all the way
gets through girls in a week
been on and off with me for a year
he has to put so much effort in with me so why would he bother if he wasn't interested