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I depression issues. I'm dealing with them on a daily basis but recently I find myself in these situations:

-sudden crying attacks
-laughing like crazy after crying (or laughing and crying at the same time)
-shortness of breath ( i literally thought i was dying)
-numb hands/face/ even teeth! Feeling numb all over.
-nausea
-feeling of dizziness
-and I feel like something horrible is about to happen to me or my loved ones.

I don't know what to do. I've had like 2 of this kind of attacks till now and worried i'll have more. And I hate seeing doctors. (I'm terrified of going to hospitals.) For all i know this doesn't have to do with depression so i thought it must be a panic attack or anxiety attack?

What the hell do i do?

Is it considered normal to be anxious all the time? To worry about your future? Make up events that may not even take place? Assume you are going to be alone for the rest of your life and fall into a panic attack when you see someone you know get engaged/begin a new relationship? Persist negative thoughts 24/7? Assume everyone is out to get you and you are alone in this world? Fear death? Fear being in debt? Lose faith in your religion? All in a short amount of time drastically, considering the fact that it gradually began at age 12? Feel like your friends are using you/going to be betray you at any given point. THOUGHTS PLEASE